Misery

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  Misery

• Jul 21, 2023

So, I've got a long, immediately noticeable scar on my left arm now... the result of that big anxiety attack I had. Since I've been so perpetually stressed over... you know... THAT issue... it leaves me prone to much worse anxiety than I'd otherwise have. "The Talk" would end it. But I keep pushing it off, so now I get to have this reminder of that extended mistake. Sooner or later I need to just DO this already.

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  Misery

• Jul 21, 2023

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  AdamG

• Jul 21, 2023

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  Qoyote

• Jul 14, 2023

okay, you know a lot about video games, why do so many top-rated games just look like slightly interactive movies? why are they being rated so high as games?

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  Misery

• Jul 11, 2023

I sure would like one of these. At some point, I'm going to buy one like this. Well, not exactly like this, but still. Extremely expensive though.

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  Misery

• Jul 5, 2023

Well the accursed fireworks seem to finally be done now, after SO MUCH of it yesterday. The nasty part is, the area's big fireworks event happens literally across the street from the house and down the road just a bit. You can watch the whole thing from the kitchen. So you can imagine how much noise we get during the main display. Which just... kept... going.

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  mysterionz

• Jul 2, 2023

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  Misery

• Jul 2, 2023

Classic gaming with romhacks recently. Final Fantasy 4, I always wanted to like, but it was so stupidly easy that I just got bored of it. The "upgraded" version lacks that problem and primarily consists of me yelling things at the screen. In the screenshot, getting completely mangled by whatever that is. I hadnt realized this genre could be such fun, if given real challenge.

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  Misery

• Jun 21, 2023

I just found this guy's channel, these are freaking hilarious. And darned impressive. I'd love to learn how to make stuff like this. Blender, really, there's so many reasons for me to learn that at some point.

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  Misery

• Jun 17, 2023

So I realized suddenly that I made a big mistake. I switched my Xbox username to “Sophie Carre”. I did not think that through. i told a couple of friends just now that I have the console, and… Yeah, they’re going to ask the name of the new account. Almost guaranteed chance that the gender thing is going to be outed to them in the next day or two. Yay, anxiety spike…. Also iPad typing BAH.

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  Misery

• Jun 16, 2023

Will be gone for a couple of days. Going to the lake house for the weekend and trying to type using the iPad brings only madness and tragedy. If anyone needs to say anything to me in that time, I will notice DMs. Probably. Internet is wobbly up there.

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  WiffingWaffles

• Jun 14, 2023

Oi, good afternoon, i trust you're doing well?

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  Misery

• Jun 11, 2023

No, I dont know where this is from.

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  Misery

• Jun 1, 2023

In gaming news, Diablo 4 is about to release. It's been like 5 billionty years since 3 came out (I was there for launch day at Gamestop, I won a standee in a contest I didnt know I was in, I was quite confused, everyone else in the place was quite disappointed). And now 4 is here.
One of those things that just seemed like it'd never just show up already.

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  Misery

• May 30, 2023

4 hour drawing session. Ouch, ouch, ouch. So close to finishing the best thing I've ever made. Wanted to really use proper perspective, so I finally decided to draw a character (same pink haired girl with the black braids from before) at an angle that isnt straight on, and more than just the face, and in a different pose. Didnt think I could do it. DID IT ANYWAY. I'll show that tomorrow probably. Ouch.

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  Misery

• May 30, 2023

Decided to try again at having The Talk this coming weekend. One way or another, I cant keep up my current state. It has started to affect my health. At this point the things keeping me going are my stubbornness and absolute refusal to lose. Even with no energy left, and despite the anxiety, I *will* achieve this goal.

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  Misery

• May 25, 2023

Okay well I'm not going up north after all. Still sorta coming down from the worst breakdown I've ever had. Normally I manage to hide these incidents but this time my control completely broke while I wasnt alone. Dont worry, I'm fine, aside from the gash on my arm. I'll post about this later. There's things to talk about, and questions to ask.

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  Misery

• May 24, 2023

Just want to say, I'm probably not going to be around over the next few days most likely. Going up north, usually I still interact with the forum and such even without my usual PC, but this time I'm just too drained and messed up. Yeah, it's been bad lately. So, radio silence for a bit, I think. But I'll still check and respond to any direct messages.

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  Misery

• May 13, 2023

Okay, so, based on the responses I got with my last update, yeah, that might have sounded a bit dramatic somehow. What happened was an injury: I was trying to open some cards on a board game that came in, and it's got that awful ultra-tight cellophane wrapping. Used the multitool thing on my keychain to try to open it, (continued in comments)

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  Misery

• May 12, 2023

So, bad news, may or may not be completely unresponsive for a day or maybe a couple of days. I'll at least be reading stuff though, so I wont miss messages or whartever. Just dont expect replies or posts during that time.
Good news, I didnt bleed on the cards.