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Xinyta

Xinyta

♡Goofy genderfluid person♡ They/Them/She/Her 35 From Illinois
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  • Xinyta
    I just love coffee. It's such a wonderful drink. Especially on a dreary day like today.
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    Gerald Wilgus
    Gerald Wilgus
    I get whole beans from Peet's and have a burr grinder. Someday I will save up for some Kopi Luwak. I had it once when I was diving in Sulawesi and it has an amazing flavor.
    UberScout
    UberScout
    Yep. It sure is a wonderful little beverage.


    That is, until you're able to smell colors...
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    Not for me. It wrecked me and gave me RSD.
    Xinyta
    I ordered a book yesterday off Amazon. Along side two personal things. The book is called 'Raising Mentally Strong Kids'. I do not have a partner, nor kids. But I got it, because the Doctor who wrote it is a Psychiatrist, and he was interviewed recently. It gave me hope with myself. That my mentality was exacerbated by bad parenting.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Nice! I am also planning on to read a book about psychiatry, and healing from trauma. Maybe i will try this book too after i am done with the others.
    Raggamuffin
    Raggamuffin
    Gabor Maté's books are well worth a read too, and he's on lots of videos on YT too. Another is Tim Fletcher on Youtube. All about parentings affects on how we grow up.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    @Raggamuffin I was talking about one of his books actually, "the myth of normal" His speeches are also great.
    Xinyta
    I'm feeling accomplished today. I focused hard on things that need to be done and only had a few hiccups here and there.
    Xinyta
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    Another drawing of Azeth. I've been kinda feeling it lately. Though I noticed I made the head a bit bigger than the body with this one.

    Though there is a bit of obvious coy playfulness to this one.
    Xinyta
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    A new drawing of Azeth. A more... befitting version for how I feel about myself. Or at least how I'd like to perceive myself.
    Xinyta
    I feel I am in control. Not like controlling everything. But that I have a better grasp on myself. That period without anxeity got me ready for it, due to putting together the moving parts causing it.

    I'll still struggle. But I am now not afraid of my anxiety. I am no longer confused. Just facing myself. That's all.
    Xinyta
    I've been on this site for two years, as of tomorrow. Where has the time gone? And why does it feel like I have been here for less time?
    Gerontius
    Gerontius
    Sometimes when things are good it goes quickly. You seem pretty cool (though I don't know you well necessarily) and I hope you can stay around for a lot longer. How are you doing lately?
    Xinyta
    Xinyta
    I am doing alright. Still trying to keep it together honestly. It's been uphill battle with my mental health. That much is certain.

    How are you?
    Xinyta
    Welp. I am now starting to see that I do have two personalities. Myself and a juvenile kid. Guess that does mean I am schizophrenic, and have a split personality. Fun...
    Gerontius
    Gerontius
    Don't a lot of us have that? Maybe it's just inner-child work instead of schizotypicality. Many autistics are traumatized by a lot of things and repress rather than mature their child-selves, and that's often going to come back & bite us in our older age. You might not be schizoid.
    Xinyta
    I have an overwhelming autistic urge to say "Om nom nom nom nom mushrooms" and I really, really, REALLY do not know why. It's been a recent little habit of mine.
    Trophonius
    Trophonius
    Does it always have to be only four noms?
    Xinyta
    Xinyta
    Not nessissarily. The amount of noms I say are based on how goofy I wanna be. To that end. I have felt particularly happy today. So my goofiness is also up.
    Xinyta

    This is the day! The day I try! Because this is the day! The day I die!

    Come set me free, all pain is gone!

    All pain undone, all pain is gone!
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