ra49
Well-Known Member
Amethystgirl, I think I have the opposite outlook to you: I spent 65 years of my life thinking I was defective, broken, and unacceptable, not knowing how to fit in or find my place, and miserably unhappy, depressed, and Rx medicated for 30+ years
(not to mention 15 years of inappropriate self-medication)
Finally having diagnoses of ADD, high-functioning ASD, and co-morbid [don't you just hate that word, sounds like death warmed over] dysthymia
has been a relief. I am finally able to begin to understand the arc of my life, put the pieces together in a way that makes sense.
Honey, I made so many mistakes I can't even count. And I hurt a lot of people unintentionally, just because I didn't understand. I regret those things and have prayed hard over them.
I have never hated myself and don't know how to help you with that, other than to say regardless of where you are in your life, it isn't over until the last heartbeat. You can always decide to make a different choice anywhere along the journey.
Like my husband the mechanical engineer says, you have to want to. No one else can walk your path.
All of us are here to walk along with you, if you want to walk with us <3
There are many really great people here with huge hearts and so welcoming and encouraging
Some of us struggle with emotional understanding - we are not being argumentative, we are just trying to understand the precise situation to craft an appropriate answer
(not to mention 15 years of inappropriate self-medication)
Finally having diagnoses of ADD, high-functioning ASD, and co-morbid [don't you just hate that word, sounds like death warmed over] dysthymia
has been a relief. I am finally able to begin to understand the arc of my life, put the pieces together in a way that makes sense.
Honey, I made so many mistakes I can't even count. And I hurt a lot of people unintentionally, just because I didn't understand. I regret those things and have prayed hard over them.
I have never hated myself and don't know how to help you with that, other than to say regardless of where you are in your life, it isn't over until the last heartbeat. You can always decide to make a different choice anywhere along the journey.
Like my husband the mechanical engineer says, you have to want to. No one else can walk your path.
All of us are here to walk along with you, if you want to walk with us <3
There are many really great people here with huge hearts and so welcoming and encouraging
Some of us struggle with emotional understanding - we are not being argumentative, we are just trying to understand the precise situation to craft an appropriate answer