Unless I am very heavily into a subject, I find it stupidly hard to read about, take interest in or learn about something I'm not too fond of. Even with something like photography, I love taking photos but the learning how to use the camera, reading word heavy text is so hard and I trail off after only a paragraph or so then I can't actually get my eyes to stay on my one line and they just go all over the shop (meaning I can't keep them in one place and they go where they want kind of thing haha).
It's like I just want to be able to do the things i enjoy, like drawing and taking photos but I want to be able to do the end product and it stresses me that I can't be as good as other people. May be with my depression and anxiety, being that I can't do it straight away, I thne put myself down and give up because "I'll never bee as good as them"???
God knows, all I know is, I hate it and wanna be good as somethnig god damn it :{ :{ :{ :{ :{ :{ :{ :{