What an idiot I am. @jsilver256 you are so right Madison is still a good friend but by me trying to make her into a casual close friend I was pushing her away, that's why she was kind of avoiding me at church but of course still messaging me in person.
This article explains everything.
https://applygodsword.com/can-single-christian-guys-and-girls-really-be-just-friends/
I think it is the best thing that I am at another church now so I can still occasionally message her in moderation more positive things but no longer obsession about meeting her on Sunday. Then eventually with my other couple friend we can all go out and eat out together, talk and catch up.
This article explains everything.
https://applygodsword.com/can-single-christian-guys-and-girls-really-be-just-friends/
I think it is the best thing that I am at another church now so I can still occasionally message her in moderation more positive things but no longer obsession about meeting her on Sunday. Then eventually with my other couple friend we can all go out and eat out together, talk and catch up.