I only have one friend who visits me these days, and he can’t spend much time with me because he has a wife. All of my other local friends decided to drop out of both the 12-step fellowship and my life over the course of the last year.
My life has become nothing more than going through the motions of work, TV and sleep. Not much I can do outside of my place these days.
I am perfectly aware that I rub most people the wrong way. I accept that. My family has made it clear to me that I am nothing but a burden on the world around me.
If I could fall asleep and spend countless hours dreaming the years away, I would do so in an instant.
EDIT - I know that most of the people around me would be much happier if I died. Not going to kill myself, but I do live with that knowledge and I accept that as my reality.
My life has become nothing more than going through the motions of work, TV and sleep. Not much I can do outside of my place these days.
I am perfectly aware that I rub most people the wrong way. I accept that. My family has made it clear to me that I am nothing but a burden on the world around me.
If I could fall asleep and spend countless hours dreaming the years away, I would do so in an instant.
EDIT - I know that most of the people around me would be much happier if I died. Not going to kill myself, but I do live with that knowledge and I accept that as my reality.
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