You are kind most people would assume I'm nuts....probably even I would assume I was nuts, if I was in your shoes. Sigh! life takes some very strange turns....change makes me ill, but life has me cornered...i'll have to figure out how to survive and rise to the occassion some how.
There is much cruel irony in all this, all I ever wanted was a little cottage in the country with a small garden and orchard where I could write my books. One of my brothers used to make fun of me, (still does), mocking me for not wanting to be important in life, he would kill to be in my position.
I get so tired, tired all the way down to my bones, I don't think I'll ever escape this Maelstrom until I die, endless plots and counter plots, war, Holy War.
I sometimes wonder if I will die in that castle house with the purple walls...is it in Ukraine...or Armenia, or Israel. Apparently if my dream was correct I will live to see the beginning of the end.
I guess every one should wish me a long life....
Onward and upward to new frontiers.