Exactly. Had she not initiated, I would have never known.i assume you mean that she was the one that pursued you or made a move on you,
I am thinking that this may be part of the problem with autistics, in general, when it comes to finding a partner. We fool ourselves into thinking we are aware, when, in fact, we are blind.
I can distinctly remember a conversation when I was 18 with my roommate's girlfriend one day. She said something to the effect that I was an attractive guy and she couldn't figure out why I didn't have a girlfriend already, given how many attractive young girls there were on campus. I said, I've never had an opportunity, and I kid you not, she looked at me like I was crazy and started laughing in disbelief. She said she knew for sure that many girls were giving me signals, in fact, named a few, and I was oblivious. It shocked and confused me.
Fast forward a few years, my wife and I were married, and a conversation in the break room at work with some of my female co-workers. We were young, so of course, some of the conversation could get a bit "racy" and we are joking around with each other, and I mentioned that I had no clue when my wife was in the mood for sex. I said that I knew when I wasn't going to have sex, but I never knew when I was. The females around me just laughed in disbelief, "Seriously, how could you NOT know?" I went along with the joke to save face, but I was seriously confused by that.
Furthermore, I've been with my wife for nearly 40 years. I am STILL clueless to her moods and signals. As much as I love her and spend our valuable time together, all those years with each other, I have zero idea what she is thinking. I always have to ask. Welcome to "mind blindness", my friend. In my mind, I am a pretty perceptive guy, but I think the mind has a way of fooling us. In reality, we don't know what we don't know. We are sometimes unaware of certain disabilities and blind spots.
So, my theory here is that there may be situations where young, autistic men are simply not recognizing the "green light" to initiate courtship behavior. There may be women in our world that are interested in us, but they don't recognize that we are autistic and are blind to their interest. Then, they may be waiting for us to initiate, and when we don't, they misinterpret this as "He's not interested." and move on. I am thinking that we unknowingly miss out on opportunities and then misinterpret this as "No one is interested in me." when it might not be the case, at all.
Now, I'm not going to pretend to have any idea of what to do about that situation, but I do think this miscommunication and our "mind blindness" is a contributing factor hampering our efforts in finding a partner.
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