I'm Anastassia54 on YouTube but can't give you a link because parts of the site are down for maintenance.
I'm stressing. Stan keeps telling me to go to the mental hospital and go in as a voluntary inpatient. I told him they probably wouldn't take me, as I "wasn't quite there yet". He said, "Well actually, I don't know if you know this or not, but you are." He said they would take me based on my list and now I realize after reading the whole thing that yes, this could get me hospitalized. I made the promise to him that I would go. He told me to do it for him. So the day after tomorrow, after I see my psychologist, I'll go. Or I can just tell the psychologist and she'll probably decide I need to go, though that second time she didn't seem to know how to help me and maybe just wanted to get rid of me that day. The first time tho, it was brilliant. We made progres. I hope on Wednesday I'll be done with my yelling stage, and be able to talk normal again. Then hopefully she'll start to like me again, as the first time she said she really liked me. She wants to keep me out of the inpatient facilities, but is ready to take her patients down the street to the hospital if she feels she has to. I'm so so so nervous. I wonder if they'll treat me right in there. If not, well, that's an opportunity to practice activism.