And again, my dear friend. I also hope that I don't sound super pompous and sanctimonious, because, it's hard to convey a lot, in just writing it, which was another thing I appreciate about Socrates, who, ironically, even though we know he didn't think enough meaning could be conveyed through the written word, we only know this because Plato bothered to write it down.
But I was reflecting on this thread and what you'd written
@Levitator, and I was thinking about different iterations of Spectrum type people who have a few small, but significant, similarities,( and even that, is highly debatable) and I've noticed that some people are able to disconnect with emotions notably (alexithymic type of thing) and have incredible frontal lobe reasoning abilities but lack certain emotionally intelligent aptitudes, and some of us, are the intense feelers who often experience negative emotions blown up, so to speak (is this just autism here, or the added ADHD that some of us demonstrate?) and emotions are always present, because that is being a Human, but differing degrees of intensity and connection, disconnection, projection,, all of which affect the way we "Logic"
So when you say.
Well, I think that's the basic issue; "I don't see God as outside myself". It has to be your time to find him, and all anyone else can do for you is provide you with encouragement and inspiration to notice him. Think of God as someone who is always desperately trying to reach you but you don't know that he can talk because his mannerisms and expressions are different from yours. Sound familiar?
Let me analyze this, from my perspective.
You have said "That's the basic issue" quote me. How can one find God but from within "The Kingdom of Heaven is Within", you have it write there! "It has to be you time to find him"'. YES, IT DOES.
How do you experience "Him" and by 'Him" do you mean Yeshua/Jesus/ Issa, that guy? or "The Holy Spirit?, Or Father Spirit or The I AM THAT I AM, exactly YOU are you referring to here?
Next, you talk about "encouragement" YES. We do all owe it to "Him" and I'm gonna assume you mean Yeshua/Jesus?Issa etc THAT guy, because THAT is a VERY encouraging, patient, kind, courageous, delightful, warm, comforting, lovleyness, just loveliness. energy and a Being, I do believe so OF COURSE encouragement is part of that/Him!!!!!
A recent thing I heard attributed to "Him' was Him saying "Everyone is where they are supposed to be" and that is a very encouraging notion. And I have always (except those dark time, but, actually even then, and, come to think of it ESPECIALLY then) been living in the inspirational way of living, it is my joy and it is a personal code. not so much as a kid, I was a very scared little bean, but, I had powerful dreams and visitations of Angelic nature from very young, around 5 to 7. I could talk more but I'm inclined to just yet.
Now I don't necessarily prescribe to the notion of "God" being "desperate" no, not so much, for me, God, being infinite and beyond time, doesn't have to worry, because "God" can see how future and know how things are going to turn out, so no, not desperate, in my book.
These are the qualities I experience. HUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGEEEEEE Love, the biggest Love you can imaginem but waaaaaaayyyyyy bigger that even that. Basically TOO big for any of us to encompass, and yet some have done better than other's in that respect. Every kind of love, fatherly love, motherly love, friend love, its inside everylove. And "Love is patient, Love is Kind" Not desperate, not really. Desperation implies fear, and while fear isn/t outside of God's Loving Light, it's not basking in it either.