Want to commit suicide any painless ways?

[Tony Ramirez]

I can't stand living alone while all of my friends and family are married with kids.

I tried everything I am capable but all I got out of it was couples as friends which makes me feel worse when they show their wife and new borns.

I try life groups but I ignored by one girl. Meanwhile it's full of couples and kids. I go back to Justin life group which was a disaster yesterday. A new girl shows up which made me smile until she started to talk about her boyfriend and would not shut up. Then a new couple joins. I get home ticked off and depressed with Justin telling me not to be angry.

Then today my local park was doing a hangout. I get there at 5 pm while the event started at 6.By 6:30 the park is full of people and not one person even came up to me to say hi. Meanwhile there were two guys sitting next to me for only a few minutes and a woman approached them and they socializing. Even a blonde girl sitting far away from the crowd was approached while I was ignored.

I am home now and I am sick of this crap and life. What will happen if I take a bottle over 400 pills of over the counter pain killers.

 

[Luca]

I'm pretty sure there are no "painless" ways to commit suicide. Including taking pills. Believe me, I have tried. I spent days researching "painless suicide methods" too at one point.

You probably don't want to hear this, but I think the solution that would help you the most, would be to try to get support in other ways (going to therapy, finding groups of people with similar interests, picking up a hobby or learning a skill, etc, I know this advice has been given many times on here, and for a lot of people it has helped) and try to work on your feelings of anger and resentment. It obviously isn't fun for you to feel this way, or you wouldn't be posting about this.

I know I've said this before, but if you have opportunities to make good friends, regardless of if they're married, single, male, female, have kids, whatever, you should take those opportunities, so you have someone to talk to. Suicidal/depressive thoughts only get worse when you internalize them and don't talk about them.
There are people I wasn't sure if I wanted to befriend because we had very different lifestyles (including people in longterm committed relationships, people with polar opposite interests, and people who are stay-at-home parents), but I'm glad I did in the long run. I am still friends with most of them.

I'm not trying to be mean or sarcastic, btw. I'm giving you advice.

 

[tree]

@Tony Ramirez
What will happen if I take a bottle over 400 pills of over the counter pain killers.

You'll make yourself sick.
It won't be fun.

When's your next appointment with your therapist?

 

[Tony Ramirez]

Don't know. She canceled earlier in the week but I was not suicidal then.

 

[Tony Ramirez]

What really sucks about my life was I posted something similar on my Church Facebook page but all that replied was new guy couples. I told them all to get lost.

Then I get another text from a married man that I know wanting to hang out. Again life sucks and I wish I was dead. I will be single forever so I might as well end it now.

 

[Metalhead]

Dude, this is extreme emotional manipulation you are trying to pull on us here. Chill the hell out.

 

[Tony Ramirez]

No I won't. I really want to die.

 

[Metalhead]

No I won't. I really want to die.

Believe it or not, I know where you are coming from, and you really do not want to keep going down the road you are on.

 

[Tony Ramirez]

I got another message from my Church Facebook page. The jackass had the nerve to say

Yes but people are trying to help you. Before I was married I had difficulty with woman. Now I am happy I found the one and the one who is the right one.

Thanks not for him rubbing it in and making me feel worse.

 

[Metalhead]

I got another message from my Church Facebook page. The jackass had the nerve to say


Thanks not for him rubbing it in and making me feel worse.

You seriously do not get that he was trying to lift your spirits, do you?

Or maybe you like being in the state of mind you have been in all the time you have posted here.

I won't say as much as Misery, but Misery is probably the best friend you have had here.

 

[Tony Ramirez]

I apologize to the married man I am talking to on Facebook. He figured out I am on the Spectrum and said it's not my fault why I can't or get approached by single girls.

He also said he will look up resources for me I guess for relationships with Autism. He also works with people on the Spectrum.

 

[Misery]

Okay, so, there's a couple of things I want to say here:

Firstly, if you're feeling *that* bad... yeah, call for help. Call 911, or if it's not quite that urgent, call your therapist or whoever. Get some assistance in whatever form.

There is no shame in asking for help. Seriously. And yes, I know there are jerks out there who would indeed shame you for asking for help, but those people are total snotwads. Dont listen to that sort of person. Listen to us here instead. Everyone here has your best interests in mind, whether you're aware of that or not.

Secondly: I want to point something out that you said here:

I apologize to the married man I am talking to on Facebook.

I hope you realize, this is positive progress for you. And it's not the first time recently, eh? That's a really good thing. It's a good step forward. Keep it up! You'll bring yourself more happiness over time if you do so.

And it's also a sign, in my eyes at least, that you can handle this and get through it.

But again, ask for some help.

Also, one other thing... you can feel free to talk to people here too. Directly, I mean, not just in the usual forum topics. There's plenty of people here who would be happy to have a 1 on 1 discussion with you to try to help you out.

Just something to think about, yeah?

Lastly I'd like to second @Yeshuasdaughter 's recommendation to watch something funny. When you're feeling down, really down, you gotta do something to counter it. Yeah, I know, it's hard to motivate yourself to do anything in that state, but ya gotta do something. And humor is often the best medicine. Is that the old saying?

 

[Raggamuffin]

Friendships can be just as valuable as a relationship. I wouldn't shun people simply because they are in a couple. It's only you who chooses to see that as a bad thing. In reality I think socialising more, and finding people who care enough to reach out and help - those are all good things.

Suicide is a personal choice. But think to those who'd miss you. I know someone who lost their partner to suicide and they have been truly crushed ever since. Family would feel the same way. Plus think to your pets and responsibilities. Suicide is a free choice, but it's the last you can ever make.

As others have said - no guarantee on something painless. Some people even survive falling from incredible heights.

I think many of us on here are no stranger to suicidal thoughts and plans etc. I'm sure we're all glad we haven't gone through with it. Not to say that thoughts won't reoccur when things are bad. But things can always improve - a lot of problems in our life our self-made, due to our beliefs and values.

I think maybe friendship should be valued more in your life, and don't use someone's relationship status as a benchmark for whether they're worth your time or not. You push too many people away in life, and then wonder why you can't attract others? Your behaviour towards couples won't have gone unnoticed I'm sure.

Also, think about how many people talk to you on here who are probably in a relationship? It's not a bad thing, and it's simply a reflection of your current beliefs that you push people away who remind you of your own relationship status, which I'm guessing then has the inner critic going ape because it's jealous of seeing people in couples.

Ed

 

[Jordy]

Suicide is a personal choice. But think to those who'd miss you. I know someone who lost their partner to suicide and they have been truly crushed ever since. Family would feel the same way. Plus think to your pets and responsibilities. Suicide is a free choice, but it's the last you can ever make.

Thats not going to hold someone back who's family is partially the reason they don't want to live anymore.

 

[Raggamuffin]

As I said, it's a free choice. At the end of the day, their beliefs will either pursue suicide or not. But I'd suggest this post is a reach out for help.

I know how it is to live with a family which utterly exhausts you and frustrates you daily. I'm looking forward to getting out of that situation myself.

Ed

 

[Raggamuffin]

That's the spirit.

And no, it won't help if you don't decide to help yourself instead of wallowing in self-pity and self-hatred. But I get it, I'm sure we all get it. The spectrum goes hand in hand with anxiety, depression and a mix of other disorders that make loving yourself and understanding others quite exhausting and challenging.

Still, I'd say it's best to keep on living.

Ed

 

[Tony Ramirez]

It's just so hard to be friends with couples especially with young kids.

Cody and his wife have a newborn baby and they are cuddling it which made me feel low and sad.

Then you got the other Tony with a beautiful wife and two daughters even with the job I wanted but was too stupid for College which he also completed.

Then another couple shows there 2 year old. Yet most women ignore me I just don't get how they can find their partner.

 

[Raggamuffin]

I can't stand kids, and I'm not close friends with anyone with children I don't think.

Everyone's story of how they met their partner will be different. Could be at work, through friends or family, a social event, at a bar or concert. I met mine in the middle of a meadow. It really is a unique experience for each and every one of us.

But being so depressed you're suicidal - that isn't a beacon to attract someone. Get yourself to a better place first. You've got to keep at it. My emotional overwhelm can lead to overwhelm in my partner. Your depression probably wouldn't be any different. Do you really want to meet someone with the belief it'll make you happy, only to find your depression makes them unhappy? It's not a good feeling, believe me.

Also, you shouldn't look to others to fix your problems. Even if they can, that won't make you feel truly satisfied or fulfilled. We have to grow and learn from our own problems. Not try and have other people fix them, or fix problems for others. Neither provides a worthwhile conclusion.

Ed

 

[Tony Ramirez]

I been around and expanded my comfort zone in 2019 not just with Church but groups, events, park hangs, parks but did I meet my spouse no just girls ignoring me and couples as friends.

I know you heard this over and over again but when I hear how easy they meet their spouse including people here and for me it's harder than pulling teeth to even have a girl know I exist nevermind form a relationship.

Who wants to live like that. No wonder why I am tired of living and wish I can just die in my sleep peaceful without any type of forced suicide.

 

[Sarah S]

I can't stand living alone while all of my friends and family are married with kids.

I tried everything I am capable but all I got out of it was couples as friends which makes me feel worse when they show their wife and new borns.

I try life groups but I ignored by one girl. Meanwhile it's full of couples and kids. I go back to Justin life group which was a disaster yesterday. A new girl shows up which made me smile until she started to talk about her boyfriend and would not shut up. Then a new couple joins. I get home ticked off and depressed with Justin telling me not to be angry.

Then today my local park was doing a hangout. I get there at 5 pm while the event started at 6.By 6:30 the park is full of people and not one person even came up to me to say hi. Meanwhile there were two guys sitting next to me for only a few minutes and a woman approached them and they socializing. Even a blonde girl sitting far away from the crowd was approached while I was ignored.

I am home now and I am sick of this crap and life. What will happen if I take a bottle over 400 pills of over the counter pain killers.

Im actually diagnosed as Severely suicidal (have been since i was a little girl) so believe me i know how you must feel.as i have been there many times. BUT TRUST me on this when i say please DONT do this. And let me also add that there isent any painless ways of doing this nor will it be peaceful. I can guarantee you the opposite on both. I actually searched for these horrible methods (and no one needs to bother asking me for any methods as i will never say) when i had my latest and hopefully last and let me also add this actually scared the living .... of me and it was actually then i said NO this is NOT the right way.

Second Suicide is NEVER have not / will not EVER be the right solution TRUST me on this.

Also, reg the pills: the human body is not built on being able to take the amount of pills needed thank God so your body will start throw it up it up again. + has been stated the odds of you succeeding and die is VERY low what you do risk is a brain damage and severe other medical lifelong problems such as among MANY others kidney failure etc.... My uncle (lives in US) actually tried that method (STRONG pain killers) a + year ago Tragic personal lost) and THANK GOD he only had to spend a week on intensive care in coma we have NO idea of possible coming medical effects. He is now cured from his suicidal thoughts due to this experience i should say thank god

Last if you need to talk my Pm is right there you are NOT alone. and i can agree on your statement

I am tired of living and wish I can just die in my sleep peaceful without any type of forced suicide.

And let me also add NATURAL causes and PAINLESS and QUICK. When my time is finally here for me to leave this life im ready to leave that's fore shore. BUT in the meantime, i will do my best of making the best of what little i have left in life to work with.