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Metalhead

Metalhead

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Metal health will drive you mad! 46 From Bedlam
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  • Metalhead
    Today is the first day of the rest of my life. I do not have to be who I was yesterday. I do not have to be who I was five seconds ago. Wallowing in diseased patterns of thought has done me no favors. There is comfort in replaying those tapes in my head. But true growth will come from turning those tapes off and replacing them.
    Gerald Wilgus
    Gerald Wilgus
    Remember, we may not have control over many things in life but, what we can control is our responses. I still screw up with that sometimes.
    Metalhead
    I feel like packing my bags, boarding a jet plane, getting an apartment in another state, changing my name, changing my face, starting life over with a stable chosen family.
    oregano
    oregano
    Take a look in the mirror / Wanna change my clothes my hair my face -Bruce Springsteen
    Metalhead
    I feel like I wish I had enough income for a vacation to Tokyo. That is a bucket list item for me - trip to Tokyo.
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    I just wish I can get a vacation out of NYC with real friends. Go on a damn plane with them or have a road trip not broken promises.
    Metalhead
    I feel a genuine sense of malaise between my currently untreated sleep apnea and my new sobriety from alcohol. I feel like some liquor might help, even though I know it won’t. I feel like I am going insane through all of this.
    Metalhead
    I just saw the Chainsaw Man movie. I will watch it again after I see season one of the tv series, I feel it would be unfair to review it seeing it without having that background story knowledge first.
    Markness
    Markness
    Nice! How or where did you see it? I thought it was showing on the 29th through Cinemark.

    EDIT: Realized I was wrong about the release date. I had it mixed up in my memory with something else.
    Metalhead
    Waking up in the middle of the night, unable to go back to sleep.
    tree
    tree
    Then what? What do you do after you wake up?
    How long do you sleep when you do sleep?
    Total, or total accumulated in case you sleep a couple hrs
    then wake for several, and repeat....
    Metalhead
    I am enjoying movies solo watching once again. Could this mean I am overcoming a clinical depression?
    Judge
    Judge
    Could well be. Interest and enthusiasm in my hobbies has always been a positive sign of my depression ebbing away. :)
    cooljethro
    cooljethro
    Sounds like an improvement. The reduction of, or cessation of anhedonia is a positive development as far as depression goes.
    Metalhead
    I am watching Hamilton on Disney Plus. It is now at the intermission. This is such a great musical.
    Metalhead
    I wish a lot of you lived closer to Puyallup, WA. I would invite you over for a sober BBQ and movie binge watching. Come to my place and let's party like the nerds we are. Maybe I'll go to more movie meetups in my area and see if I can make some cinephile friends there.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    l love WA state. l. lived in Ellensburg. So beautiful.
    Metalhead
    Drama is one hell of a drug. Letting go of it should be the easiest thing in the world, but it is not. I am healthier without it, as is everyone else. I can think clearly now, but how long will it last this time?
    Metalhead
    I feel like binge watching movies and writing reviews when I get home from work today. Sipping hot ginger tea, unsweetened, under a warm fluffy blanket on my recliner couch.
    Metalhead
    I feel like eating the Thai Curry boneless wings from a local joint. Along with some fries and a non alcoholic beer. My acid reflux will hate me over that if I indulged in something like this. Every food that I love hates my body.
    Metalhead
    I am drinking a 1 liter bottle of Mountain Dew right now. I am feeling like a failure because I caved into that instead of buying liquor. Ideally, I would not be drinking any garbage at all.
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    Metalhead
    Metalhead
    Very true, although full sugar Mountain Dew is not any better when I think about it.
    oregano
    oregano
    Mountain Dew may have a lot of sugar/corn syrup, but IMO alcohol is FAR FAR WAY worse, especially with someone who has your history with alcohol. I would rather you drink a liter of Mountain Dew than a bottle of Makers Mark, for sure.
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    Sometimes beating addiction starts with "harm reduction."

    A bottle of Mt. Dew is not the perfect solution, no. But, it's a hell of a lot better than the alternative.
    Sometimes, we have to take these things in stages.

    Your choice of soda over booze is something to celebrate, not something to tear yourself down for.
    Metalhead
    I am feeling a profound sense of clinical depression. Knowing it is all chemical is helping me navigate through it without a sense of panic. I won't do anything stupid, but I will talk to my doctor very soon.
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    Great insight here.

    Hope you get through this tough part soon.
    Metalhead
    Ace, RIP, the only talented member of KISS has passed away.
    Judge
    Judge
    He and Peter couldn't pass the ego of Gene Simmons. I figure Gene's obnoxious personality was just as toxic as Ace and Peter's drug use. Go figure.
    Metalhead
    The bookkeeper at the office is jinxing my weight loss progress. She brought in Krispy Kreme donuts for everybody today. I had one and stopped there. They go great with black coffee.
    Gerald Wilgus
    Gerald Wilgus
    Best when they are fresh!
    Outdated
    Outdated
    They failed in Australia, you see a couple around the place but they're not very popular and struggle to stay in business. They can't compete with Aussie bakeries that sell so much more than just donuts and soft drinks. Donuts were never really popular here to start with, like hotdogs, only kids like them.

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