Misery

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  Misery

• Jan 2, 2024

I need to like, hire someone to just sit near me all the time, and any time I lean forward in my chair into an awkward position, they just hit me with a shoe until I stop doing it. It'd save me a lot of neck and back pain.

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  Misery

• Dec 31, 2023

So, uh... my stepmother was telling me about how the card thing was going at the store (it's going well) as she'd gone over to have a look. Apparently, someone asked "oh, did you make these?" (the nameplate was missing) and she says "no, I'm the stepmother of the card girl!" I dont think she caught what she'd just said, I didnt respond. This, uh... this isnt going to be a freaking surprise to anyone, is it...

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  Misery

• Dec 31, 2023

For anyone who could use a good laugh. I watched this like 20 times and it doesnt stop being funny.

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  Misery

• Dec 24, 2023

"How in the world is the battery on this new phone of mine dead after I'd just charged it yesterday?" *checks phone after recharge* "ah, I see. It's the 5 straight hours of exciting video footage of the ceiling tiles that did it"

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  Misery

• Dec 21, 2023

So, I messed up my arm again. That scratching/raking thing I do, I cant seem to stop once I get into an agitated mental state. A bit nasty looking, hopefully I wont end up with more scars again. Negative stims can be very frustrating, eh?

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  Misery

• Dec 20, 2023

So this is what the hearts in the previous image originally looked like.

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  Misery

• Dec 19, 2023

So here's today's digital art creation, based on an idea from my father. Both the background and the hearts are made of the same stuff, it's all particles and fields. And then some Photoshop... if you look at the hearts (which are all the same heart) real close, you can see where both halves have been "stitched" together. That was the most annoying part.

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  Misery

• Dec 16, 2023

I'll be glad when this month is over. I swear half of it is just feeling bad/guilty about avoiding family parties/events. Enormous extended family, so there's a lot of that.

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  Misery

• Dec 12, 2023

I swear it does this on purpose.

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  Misery

• Dec 10, 2023

Playing through Final Fantasy Legend on the Gameboy (emulating through Launchbox & Retroarch). I had it as a kid, never got all the way through it. It's from that really archaic/obtuse era of RPGs that did things like not telling you item stats, or what anything at all did. And then there's the monsters. "Meat Transformations" is an odd name for an FAQ guide.

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  Misery

• Dec 8, 2023

Getting back to this is great so far. I did the three on the left today... the traditional 3x3 is still as easy as it ever was despite me being rusty. The weird thing on the far left was more confusing than expected. The others are some that I intend on tackling next. The one with the gears is the easiest of them. But really none of these are TOO hard.

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  Misery

• Dec 7, 2023

Twisty puzzles! One of my hobbies, but one I havent been able to do in a long time due to physical issues. But after a lot of PT, and getting my arm brace, that problem has been gone for awhile now. So I can FINALLY get back to doing these. I'm currently super excited about this. And yes, I have A LOT of these. They get increasingly ridiculous.

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  Misery

• Dec 7, 2023

My birthday gift from my father & stepmother. I use brush pens a lot, though the ones I already had are marker types, very specific in what type of paper they're meant for (marker paper, duh). These new ones are watercolor, so they'll work on the infinite pile of watercolor paper I have, along with the weird watercolor ink vials.

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  Metalhead

• Dec 7, 2023

Happy birthday!

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  Misery

• Dec 5, 2023

Why does it have to be so hard to tell people things? Or ask for help? I'm so freaking frustrated with myself at this point. In other news, I clawed at my arm again.

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  Misery

• Dec 4, 2023

Honestly really pleased with my progress so far, with art overall. I'm getting the hang of my own general style (whatever it might be called), drawing things at odd angles, and doing this MUCH faster and with fewer errors. Feeling good about it for the first time, really. The rest of that picture will be a challenge, but I think I can do it.

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  Misery

• Dec 4, 2023

Lilith from Binding of Isaac, leaping to avoid a monster attack coming from behind. This came out pretty much perfect, exactly as I'd envisioned it. Still need her horns, and an ornate pattern on the box. This is only a small part of the picture though. Monster (the Scourge), background with fully detailed walls, full shading... Gonna take awhile.

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  Misery

• Nov 28, 2023

This is called "Veiled Existence"
Also, freakin' ouch. I've got to stop doing these in a single sitting. But once an idea hits me it's like I gotta get it onto paper quick or it'll fly away or something.

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  Misery

• Nov 6, 2023

Alright I'm back, I've snapped out of that reverie. This happens every year as winter gets going, anything that was bothering me already just... multiplies for a time and I just collapse in on myself. I'm not exactly back to 100% yet, but I also currently dont feel like stabbing anything, so that's a start.

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  Misery

• Oct 29, 2023

Might vanish or go silent for awhile here. The accursed gender thing is driving me up the wall lately, mood and such is really messed up. Can’t deal with people well when I get into this state so I tend to retreat and hide for a time. Not much else to say.