TL : DR!


I can process logic, but have little ability to process complex numeric abstractions. I've no internal process to be able to visualise in any fashion. I don't feel 'bad' about it as such, but it severely limits any way to partly validate anything original - 'original' with respect to my not knowingly having been overtly presented with a particular concept, but having thought through the logical patterns in what I have learnt and seen connections that suggest better confirmation of one of my possible options for understanding a thing, or a new connection I've not consciously rationalised previously.
It's very gratifying to later view a video or read an article that by chance presents the same idea, although equally it brings my ego back to earth realising I'm only picking up on something many others have realised long before me - not really so clever after all!


I've decided my brain/mind seems to operate more like ChatGBT (ChatBooGS?). I have very little formal education, much of what I know I've had to teach myself. For decades I've got very good at learning to source valid information, and good at cross referencing and sometimes motive divination (e.g. if the content is hard to evaluate, then evaluate the author), or at least information that I consider valid (or as valid as I can reasonably expect) based on my own criteria - I (try to) tend toward the evidence/logic methodologies...

Is what's being presented based on independent evidence?

If so can the source of evidence be presented for my independent analysis? (and does it satisfy initial estimates of accuracy?), and then build some sort of schema of meaning, the semantics of it all.

Then finally, what are the logical connections that build on that evidence to provide reasoning for the final conclusions being posited?
Obviously this is simplified, e.g. each connection may need the above process applied to just itself, and the nature of what's presented in the above analysis method can easily change some of the methods used.
Eventually it seemed as though I reached a point where this 'AI training' of my mind (as viewed with hindsight, at the time just trying to build my own understanding of my universe) actually started to produce it's own results once a certain amount had built up, direct from my subconscious fed into my conscious (I've just had an idea!) rather than some long slow difficult conscious analysis producing the new concept to my conscious mind. So I'll rhetorically ask myself something as part of a train of thought, and low and behold, sometimes ChatBooGS just immediately spits out this new (to me) concept. Much of what I write comes from the same sort of process.
Like many people, my little pet ego needs regular feeding, love and attention, a bit of false flattery now and again, etc. So of course I consider my answers to be of far higher quality that most non-specialists achieve (or are prepared to publish), and bask in the self-gratifying thought that I'm really smart in some ways (mostly enabled by taking care to only ever talk to idiots, because indeed everything is relative!

), but taking a careful objectivised (i.e. as objective as I can manage) look with a view to finding where I've made bad assumptions and/or mistakes, generally I don't tend to find major clangers (though that doesn't mean there are none), and likewise, sadly few people challenge my ideas (or at least in a way I can engage with - anyone can call me an idiot (and may be correct!) but it's trite, provides no engagement, no structures to pull apart, test and squeeze, no black boxes to dissect, understand and manipulate) - most of all, nothing validated enough to change (improve) my judgement and understanding in a sound fashion.
Usually personal criticism's are the most pointless and worthless since I know I'm awash with failings and not the most pleasant of characters around, so it's telling me little other than whoever is saying it has no interesting and educational comments to make to back up their ideas, and so are resorting to close-minded tactics - turned it from an intellectual challenge into a fight for who's right (where 'right' does not mean 'correct' necessarily).
Sorry, this has (as usual with me) turned into an off-topic rant.
a lot of the math used was applicable to physics
So it's not so much that I need the math to have ideas, but more that my ideas are pretty useless in the greater scheme of things, beyond personal satisfaction (which has little real value) and/or interest in the topic.
If I'm unable to attempt even the most crude and simple forms of 'proof' to see if there's some major unseen flaw in my thinking, then for me at least, attempting to build on such ideas (i.e. those not already proven by others and unprovable by me) without something more concrete than my rather subjective and flawed conclusions is not tenable. I get the heebie jeebies doing that. Everything inside is flagged as tentative by a certain degree until I can come across some sort of secondary indicator of accuracy (mostly by coming across someone else presenting same idea, but giving something concrete to back it up).
P.S. When I use words like 'prove' I only mean to the limits of my ability, and the importance vs the time and difficulty, providing limits as to how much effort is worth applying for what value it will have. I still try to flag things as 'much more likely' or 'maybe but needs more evidence/logic', or 'unlikely but no better alternative yet', etc.