It is hard to recover from, also being the only one diagnosed with an ASD in the family and probably all my close relatives being NTs doesn't help. Well my sister has some odd traits but I think it's just learning difficulties, not Asperger's. And even if she did have ASD traits, she still doesn't have all the severe anxiety and ADHD on top of it, and she seemed to have more friends than I did.I really relate to you on that, I was absolutely nothing to them. I was just the ‘special’ (their words, not mine) one they could get free laughs out of, punched me, kicked me, made my life miserable. I don’t really think I ever really recovered from that ostracisation.
So while most people on the spectrum have parents, grandparents, cousins, aunts, uncles, pets, and everybody else in their family with autism, I feel my ASD wasn't meant to be, that I was born an NT but something happened to my brain when I was 4, maybe I bumped my head or *cough-vaccine-cough* or anything like that.