If you were honest with yourselves, how many of you hate having this condition?

[Chimorin]

For me, I really, really, really hate having Autism. Currently writing this during yet another burnout all because of my brain can’t handle literally the basic functions of living. Of course Autism costed me in the social department, but it’s effected majorly in all areas of my life, including employment, education, cognitively, this condition has robbed me of so much stuff and I hate it. I’m just really tired of having to be forced to abide my limitations which keep in me in a horrible standing in life, and if I try to go against my limitations my brain throws up an error. It’s really frustrating and tiresome having this awful condition.

 

[Misty Avich]

I'm not allowed to say I hate having autism because it's apparently offensive. But it's okay, they only get offended because it's me saying it and they have some sort of everlasting grudge against me from the other site, so hopefully coming from you it won't be offensive.

 

[Chimorin]

I'm not allowed to say I hate having autism because it's apparently offensive. But it's okay, they only get offended because it's me saying it and they have some sort of everlasting grudge against me from the other site, so hopefully coming from you it won't be offensive.

Oops, looks like I’ve opened a can of worms…

 

[Ronald Zeeman]

This condition does not bother me at all, the side effects of my stroke bother me more as it severely limits what I can do standing walking difficult.

 

[Magna]

I'm sorry to hear of your troubles. Having autism and/or ADHD can account for the biggest challenges people like us have in trying to live a fulfilling life.

Certainly there are times when I "hate" having autism and ADHD. But my neurology and the way I'm "wired" is apparently according to modern medicine and the biological differences in brain structures of NT vs. ND, distinctly different. In other words, the fundamental way that I perceive the "world" with my senses is quite different than how NTs would view the world.

I actually thought about this yesterday when I was listening to a podcast about ADHD and ADHD medications. If there was a pill that "cured" me of my autism/ADHD and essentially changed my neurology to be like an NT, the thought of that made me feel physically nauseous. I don't envy NTs. This is an NT dominated world and an NT dominated society. NTs have lived without the challenges that encumber autistics and still, this is the best society they can fashion? That's not enviable to me at all. It's a disappointment. Why would I want to align myself with that?

 

[Chimorin]

This condition does not bother me at all, the side effects of my stroke bother me more as it severely limits what I can do standing walking difficult.

I’m really sorry to hear that, if you don’t mind me asking how long ago was it since it happened to you? I knew someone who also had one happen to her and it did take her a couple months to recover, but she was able to resume normality afterwards.

 

[Chimorin]

I'm sorry to hear of your troubles. Having autism and/or ADHD can account for the biggest challenges people like us have in trying to live a fulfilling life.

Certainly there are times when I "hate" having autism and ADHD. But my neurology and the way I'm "wired" is apparently according to modern medicine and the biological differences in brain structures of NT vs. ND, distinctly different. In other words, the fundamental way that I perceive the "world" with my senses is quite different than how NTs would view the world.

I actually thought about this yesterday when I was listening to a podcast about ADHD and ADHD medications. If there was a pill that "cured" me of my autism/ADHD and essentially changed my neurology to be like an NT, the thought of that made me feel physically nauseous. I don't envy NTs. This is an NT dominated world and an NT dominated society. NTs have lived without the challenges that encumber autistics and still, this is the best society they can fashion? That's not enviable to me at all. It's a disappointment. Why would I want to align myself with that?

I get you on that. There is definitely benefits to having autism in my experience (for example higher awareness mentally), but when autism does suck, it really does suck if you get me.

 

[Judge]

I prefer to state such sentiment in my own words:

That I can coexist with my autism far better than I can with my OCD.

Simple point in my own case: My autism tends to be problematic only when involving interactions with others. My OCD follows me wherever I go 24/7, whether completely alone or in a crowd of people.

 

[Chimorin]

I prefer to state such sentiment in my own words:

That I can coexist with my autism far better than I can with my OCD.

Man, life definitely didn’t treat you the best in the mental health department huh…

I do really respect your strength to keep going regardless though, needless to say you’ve been isolated for as long as I’ve been alive, plus a whole bunch of issues (including the one you mentioned above) you haven’t disclosed yet you still wake up everyday. You have my respect.

 

[Misty Avich]

Oops, looks like I’ve opened a can of worms…

No, you haven't. You should be free to say anything here as long as it's within the rules, and there's nothing in the rules to suggest we can't hate our autism. But different rules apply to me for some reason.

 

[Xinyta]

I don't think it's unusual for anyone to harbor some kind of ill will towards themselves for having it. It's part of the process of accepting it. Even if it doesn't seem like it.

Yes there are some glaring flaws of being autistic. But it's not healthy to obsess about strictly those things. Autism does has positives, but it takes working, not only within your limits. But working to understand what you truly are capable of.

We are aliens to the NT world. And they are aliens to our own world views. But somewhere in between, is common ground. That it is possible to still function in a world not made for us. But part of it is not allowing the world of NTs to encroach our own internal world. This is one aspect of being autistic that is difficult to grapple with, when you are surrounded by NTs. No one to understand your pain.

It's scary. It truly is. But nothing comes from dwelling. Nothing good anyway.

Hating one's self for something we cannot control, is like hating ourself for our birth. We didn't ask to be born. We didn't ask to have Autism. But in some way, because these things DID happen. We have a purpose on this Earth. Facing the NT world, is only one small part of the bigger whole.

 

[Chimorin]

I don't think it's unusual for anyone to harbor some kind of ill will towards themselves for having it. It's part of the process of accepting it. Even if it doesn't seem like it.

Yes there are some glaring flaws of being autistic. But it's not healthy to obsess about strictly those things. Autism does has positives, but it takes working, not only within your limits. But working to understand what you truly are capable of.

We are aliens to the NT world. And they are aliens to our own world views. But somewhere in between, is common ground. That it is possible to still function in a world not made for us. But part of it is not allowing the world of NTs to encroach our own internal world. This is one aspect of being autistic that is difficult to grapple with, when you are surrounded by NTs. No one to understand your pain.

It's scary. It truly is. But nothing comes from dwelling. Nothing good anyway.

Hating one's self for something we cannot control, is like hating ourself for our birth. We didn't ask to be born. We didn't ask to have Autism. But in some way, because these things DID happen. We have a purpose on this Earth. Facing the NT world, is only one small part of the bigger whole.

I just pray for something to be better on the other side after this life. Will there be another side? Well, I have my doubts, but a hope of something is better than nothing.

 

[FayetheAspie]

I think the type of ASD condition has a lot do with how they feel about having it. Personally I would not want to not have it because I like getting extremely high grades, noticing small details that others don't, and having a curious personality that drives me to learn and do my own experiments and research. I don't really understand why fidgeting when sitting or rocking a bit when standing in one place is considered to be so problematic. That said, I can understand that someone with difficulty speaking and/or with severe emotional problems would desire to not have those symptoms.

 

[NB79]

yeah i don't like what autism has brought to me, i think the 'good part' of autism, i mean things like being focused etc, is not autism is just that people with certain abilities get autism more often who knows why i believe.

 

[Chimorin]

I just have a habit of comparing myself to others, just feel left behind compared to them y’know?

 

[WhitewaterWoman]

Everyone in this life is dealt a hand of cards. It's how you play those cards that makes a difference in your life. Because I am autistic, I have the benefit of some things I place a high value on, like telling the truth, wanting things to be fair, wanting to make decisions based on facts and not feelings run riot.

If making me NT would take away those characteristics, I'd never do it. I enjoy my life. Lots of horrible things have happened to me over the years, I am soon to be 71 so I've had a lot of experience. But I like who I am and don't want that to change in any spectacular way.

I also just retired from a job in which I worked with developmentally disabled individuals, mostly adults. There are way more disabilities I would not want at all. You might want to visit a local Adult Day Training Center and see what others need to cope with.

We all get dealt some "bad" cards. Still gotta play them and play them as well as you can for a fulfilling life.

 

[Ronald Zeeman]

I’m really sorry to hear that, if you don’t mind me asking how long ago was it since it happened to you? I knew someone who also had one happen to her and it did take her a couple months to recover, but she was able to resume normality afterwards.

Going on five years doctor in hospital prescribed gabapentin which made things worse I had told him I had previously recovered from transverse myelitis years ago, Took me two years to figure out his error. Combine this with age. Bottom line twice in my life I Lost ability to walk.

 

[Chimorin]

Going on five years doctor in hospital prescribed gabapentin which made things worse I had told him I had previously recovered from transverse myelitis years ago, Took me two years to figure out his error. Combine this with age. Bottom line twice in my life I Lost ability to walk.

Man that’s awful, I’m really sorry to hear that…

I really hope you get it sorted eventually, of course a lot easier said than done though.

 

[Boogs]

I just pray for something to be better on the other side after this life. Will there be another side? Well, I have my doubts, but a hope of something is better than nothing.

Personally I don't bother with things I can't evidence or rationally and logically argue so anything to do with any 'other side' can wait until then, it won't change my life. But it sounds like you're deciding your know you future, and that is something none of us can know for sure, it's just an extrapolation of your past, but no more real than a better imagined future.

 

[Chimorin]

Personally I don't bother with things I can't evidence or rationally and logically argue so anything to do with any 'other side' can wait until then, it won't change my life. But it sounds like you're deciding your know you future, and that is something none of us can know for sure, it's just an extrapolation of your past, but no more real than a better imagined future.

Completely get you on that. At the end of the day, I hope for it not necessarily because I know, but it just helps me feel better. It’s not going to hurt hoping for something after all I suppose.