Did you learn how to right the canoe? I have seen people practice that in kayaks but not in canoes. I wonder about all the water that would be in the boat. I know what you mean about taking a wave on the beam but I was in big waves once, the biggest I'd ever seen, about six feet when I was out in the bay, The trough got so deep it was dark for a moment. I remembered to point into the waves but wow, my bow went under the wave and I saw a thick wall of clear water coming over the deck towards me. It felt like slow motion. I was dry watching and then it flooded the dinghy and I was underwater in my seat. Started taking more waves on the beam after that. A rougher ride but I was dry.
My little canoe will not take 6 foot waves. I have taken on water on big lakes or in rapids. Sometimes I have to go to land after a rapids to empty water out of the boat. Righting the boat is, in theory, something one can do, but it is taught and practiced in calm water on days with good weather and empty boats. However, the most likely time to swamp a canoe is in bad weather, big waves or in a rapids. So in a sense, it is not a useful skill.
I don't like amusement park rides either.I think things should only be fun. If sailing felt miserable to someone, that is not good. I like when the boat heels. On a keelboat (larger than a dinghy, the kind of sailboat people picture when they think of boats) heels, it's so fun to me to go to the high side (the side opposite). It is like an amusement park ride to me. I can watch the foam and hear the loud water. For me it's great. Maybe awful for someone else. I feel like a sailor deep inside, like it is who I always was. Boats are more natural to me than anything else. The only place I feel calm and really at home is in a small boat shop (where boats are built and repaired).
You could start building your own boat. I don't build canoes, but lots of people I know do. I guess this would be difficult if you live in an apartment.
I understand. This is why I canoe alone also. I go on long trips where I hopefully won't see anyone for weeks. It sounds scary, but for me it is refreshing. On a boat, in the water, I feel like I am more wholely who I am.Autistic, better being alone, I would go to the marina during the week when no one was around, rig a dinghy and go out on the bay all alone. What a feeling under the blue sky and all the water and not another person for a mile. All alone on earth. Scary because if anything goes wrong I could die and I was scared but what a feeling.