What are you trying to overcome?

[Xinyta]

Apathy and self-created psychosomatic fears.

I feel trapped both emotionally and mentally. I have feelings inside. I truly do. But it's been impossible to express them in alot of ways. Especially since I feel like I am not genuine in most of what do show. If I do.

I have spent so long building fears and lies in myself, that I naturally default to them. And it seems very difficult to overcome. That I feel afraid of doing things and/or interacting with people. It's created paranoia. And worse. It's created psychosis and a anxiety disorder in me. I take meds for my profound anxiety. But fear I feel still psychologically, still tries to search and trigger my, now non-existent, anxiety. To no avail. Making me question how I can shut this off.

I have recently discovered that I likely have a Toliet Phobia/Anxiety. The only reason I never did explore this before, is the same reason I never explored my trama. I was too far gone in my own world to care.

 

[Aspychata]

Sorry @Xinyta , but l would still talk to you. l think we develope phobias to deal with what we don't know how to deal with.

 

[Aspychata]

My hardest lesson to date is, nobody is our friend. Some of us walk very tough paths, you need to adjust your rose-colored glasses, and understand there are others plotting against you for no understandable reason. It's a life lesson. You still walk forward, but you change your thoughts to accept that people aren't nice, you personally need to get with the program if you worship survival, Pure Survival. If this was the only gift l could give to thr forum, it's that.