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Metalhead

Metalhead

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Video game and movie addict. All for gay pride. 45 From Bedlam
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  • Metalhead
    I suppose I could have some empathy for my mother - her mother was just as horrible to her as she is to me. Not saying what she does is ever OK, but I have an opportunity to break the family trauma for myself.
    Metalhead
    Seriously, I need a vacation. One month and several days away, my vacation begins. Away from family drama and family psychosis. Good times with great friends. Good food, good hiking, good chill downtime, zero damn stress for two whole weeks.
    Metalhead
    Today, at work, I helped a crying parent get hooked up with services for her young child. Holy (expletive). This comes with the territory in my job, but it is gratifying when things like this come together right.
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    VictorR
    That's great! Part of what keeps me going in my job are those special moments where you're able to make something happen for someone.
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    Thank you for sharing. Very uplifting.
    Metalhead
    I think I am going to go on a nice long walk before I get home from work today. Buy a couple of things from a grocery store. Make virgin margaritas and beef enchiladas when for dinner.
    Metalhead
    So, instead of hitting the snooze button until it is about ten minutes before I have to leave, I forced myself to get out of bed when my alarm went off. And I am taking my time, made a healthy breakfast, took a shower, stretched, made my bed. Great feeling.
    Metalhead
    I need to spend more time with my hobbies, and I need to take on a volunteer shift somewhere. Too much idle time with my headspace is very bad for me.
    AdamG
    AdamG
    same here. I tried volunteering at animal shelter, and then hurt my back so haven't even called them. It is show up as you will, so I'm sure I'll be welcome back once healed. But right now. So bored.
    Metalhead
    I am tired of being the family black sheep, the one who people always say, “You know how crazy you get sometimes,” when I try to affirm my boundaries. I think I will plan a relocation very far away from here. I think it is time for such an action.
    Misery
    Misery
    Do you have any specific place you want to move to? Somewhere special?
    Metalhead
    Metalhead
    Yeah, a friend has offered me a room for rent on the other side of the country. I think I will take her up on the offer.
    AdamG
    AdamG
    I think this would be healthy for you. Some separation from the abuse.
    Metalhead
    So, today my mother flat out told me that none of my friends cared about me like she cares about me. I am going to plan to move very far away.
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    Judge
    Judge
    Did you ever consider the possibility that your mother may have dementia?

    Mine did. Though most of her most disagreeable side I had to learn about through other people. Very sad. At times she could be either "Baby Jane or her sister Blanche Hudson". Sugary sweet or downright cruel. It was tough.
    Metalhead
    Metalhead
    Why should I care about her mental state? She is dead to me.
    AdamG
    AdamG
    Your mother is toxic. I agree, her mental state is no longer your concern. She has done too much to you.
    Metalhead
    Another night of pure insomnia.
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    Insomnia usually makes for a troublesome day. Hope you are coping okay.
    AdamG
    AdamG
    I hate insomnia. It usually lasts for 2-3 nights for me, every week or two. Hate it hate it hate it. I hope you sleep tonight.
    Metalhead
    I feel like drinking Ace of Spades and smoking a Cuban Cohiba while wearing an Italian suit and sitting in the back of a stretch limo. I probably spent as much money as that would require on groceries today. Damn, food is expensive now.
    Metalhead
    Looking for somebody to see a Slayer tribute band with me this weekend. That scares most of my RL friends. Heh.
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    Metalhead
    Metalhead
    Nope. I will say the mosh pit at the Metallica tribute concert was probably the most chill mosh pit I have ever seen. Most of the guys in it were in their 30’s and 40’s.
    MildredHubble
    MildredHubble
    I guess with age comes wisdom! I think a Metallica mosh pot might be more my speed :-)
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    Luca
    I would go with you! Wish I lived closer.
    Metalhead
    Today, I am providing more whine than a French vineyard.
    MildredHubble
    MildredHubble
    Sometimes you need to externalise. If you don't let off steam it builds up and it's not good for you. It's a bit like wine, if you have too much in you, your body will eject it. :-) Don't feel bad for getting things off your chest! :)
    AdamG
    AdamG
    What did the grape say when the elephant sat on it? Nothing, it just wined.
    Metalhead
    After hearing my mother go on about how losing 30lbs is not a good enough start and that I still am too fat and that I need to eat less than 1,200 calories a day if I "really" wanted to lose weight, it makes me want to give up the weight loss journey.
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    Metalhead
    Metalhead
    I am refraining from referring to her in crude and profane terms right now. My knee jerk reactions are what I am denying myself now.
    Metalhead
    Metalhead
    What makes this worse is that my mother insists she is only being this hard on me “because she loves me and worries about me”. She is a c-word of the highest order.
    AdamG
    AdamG
    She is a real piece of work. Losing 30# is great progress, I hope you don't give up. This is for you, not her.
    Metalhead
    The Internet brings out the worst in mankind. Social media should be destroyed. It is mankind’s de-evolution in slow motion. We should crucify Facebook, Twitter, Reddit. Burn it to hell and back.
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    A Fluffy Gray Cat
    A Fluffy Gray Cat
    Ironically, TikTok is the only mainstream social media I can stomach, although I definitely agree with Luca's position that so much of the app is unfiltered garbage. If I'm on anything else, it's either community-oriented, Discord, or a forum. I should realistically go cold turkey outside of those, but still haven't..
    L
    Luca
    Forums are the only thing I currently use (and specifically only this forum, I have no online presence anywhere else anymore.)
    I have thought about maybe using Discord because I like the idea of using an app where people aren't able to search you by first and last name. I usually use Gmail messenger though.
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    Social media is probably just a case of inevitable self destruction. It’s still in its infancy and has plenty of time to destroy itself (and us along with it).
    Metalhead
    Facebook sucks.
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    Kisa the tea
    Kisa the tea
    Social media in general is horrible.
    Metalhead
    Metalhead
    Yes, social media brings out the worst types of keyboard warriors, who would most likely run very far away from me if I ever gave them a filthy look IRL.
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    Luca
    I have been off of social media for years now. I deactivated every single account and have never touched them again. Good riddance to that cesspool of human garbage.
    I know enough people irl who hate LGBTQ+ people, including extended family, I don't need to see more of this kind of crap online than I already do, without even having social media.
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