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Metalhead

Metalhead

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  • Metalhead
    I am tired of being the family black sheep, the one who people always say, “You know how crazy you get sometimes,” when I try to affirm my boundaries. I think I will plan a relocation very far away from here. I think it is time for such an action.
    Misery
    Misery
    Do you have any specific place you want to move to? Somewhere special?
    Metalhead
    Metalhead
    Yeah, a friend has offered me a room for rent on the other side of the country. I think I will take her up on the offer.
    AdamG
    AdamG
    I think this would be healthy for you. Some separation from the abuse.
    Metalhead
    So, today my mother flat out told me that none of my friends cared about me like she cares about me. I am going to plan to move very far away.
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    Judge
    Judge
    Did you ever consider the possibility that your mother may have dementia?

    Mine did. Though most of her most disagreeable side I had to learn about through other people. Very sad. At times she could be either "Baby Jane or her sister Blanche Hudson". Sugary sweet or downright cruel. It was tough.
    Metalhead
    Metalhead
    Why should I care about her mental state? She is dead to me.
    AdamG
    AdamG
    Your mother is toxic. I agree, her mental state is no longer your concern. She has done too much to you.
    Metalhead
    Another night of pure insomnia.
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    Insomnia usually makes for a troublesome day. Hope you are coping okay.
    AdamG
    AdamG
    I hate insomnia. It usually lasts for 2-3 nights for me, every week or two. Hate it hate it hate it. I hope you sleep tonight.
    Metalhead
    I feel like drinking Ace of Spades and smoking a Cuban Cohiba while wearing an Italian suit and sitting in the back of a stretch limo. I probably spent as much money as that would require on groceries today. Damn, food is expensive now.
    Metalhead
    Looking for somebody to see a Slayer tribute band with me this weekend. That scares most of my RL friends. Heh.
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    Metalhead
    Metalhead
    Nope. I will say the mosh pit at the Metallica tribute concert was probably the most chill mosh pit I have ever seen. Most of the guys in it were in their 30’s and 40’s.
    MildredHubble
    MildredHubble
    I guess with age comes wisdom! I think a Metallica mosh pot might be more my speed :-)
    L
    Luca
    I would go with you! Wish I lived closer.
    Metalhead
    Today, I am providing more whine than a French vineyard.
    MildredHubble
    MildredHubble
    Sometimes you need to externalise. If you don't let off steam it builds up and it's not good for you. It's a bit like wine, if you have too much in you, your body will eject it. :-) Don't feel bad for getting things off your chest! :)
    AdamG
    AdamG
    What did the grape say when the elephant sat on it? Nothing, it just wined.
    Metalhead
    After hearing my mother go on about how losing 30lbs is not a good enough start and that I still am too fat and that I need to eat less than 1,200 calories a day if I "really" wanted to lose weight, it makes me want to give up the weight loss journey.
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    Metalhead
    Metalhead
    I am refraining from referring to her in crude and profane terms right now. My knee jerk reactions are what I am denying myself now.
    Metalhead
    Metalhead
    What makes this worse is that my mother insists she is only being this hard on me “because she loves me and worries about me”. She is a c-word of the highest order.
    AdamG
    AdamG
    She is a real piece of work. Losing 30# is great progress, I hope you don't give up. This is for you, not her.
    Metalhead
    The Internet brings out the worst in mankind. Social media should be destroyed. It is mankind’s de-evolution in slow motion. We should crucify Facebook, Twitter, Reddit. Burn it to hell and back.
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    A Fluffy Gray Cat
    A Fluffy Gray Cat
    Ironically, TikTok is the only mainstream social media I can stomach, although I definitely agree with Luca's position that so much of the app is unfiltered garbage. If I'm on anything else, it's either community-oriented, Discord, or a forum. I should realistically go cold turkey outside of those, but still haven't..
    L
    Luca
    Forums are the only thing I currently use (and specifically only this forum, I have no online presence anywhere else anymore.)
    I have thought about maybe using Discord because I like the idea of using an app where people aren't able to search you by first and last name. I usually use Gmail messenger though.
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    Social media is probably just a case of inevitable self destruction. It’s still in its infancy and has plenty of time to destroy itself (and us along with it).
    Metalhead
    Facebook sucks.
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    Kisa the tea
    Kisa the tea
    Social media in general is horrible.
    Metalhead
    Metalhead
    Yes, social media brings out the worst types of keyboard warriors, who would most likely run very far away from me if I ever gave them a filthy look IRL.
    L
    Luca
    I have been off of social media for years now. I deactivated every single account and have never touched them again. Good riddance to that cesspool of human garbage.
    I know enough people irl who hate LGBTQ+ people, including extended family, I don't need to see more of this kind of crap online than I already do, without even having social media.
    Metalhead
    So I have plantar fasciitis in my right foot and I still have to walk to and from the bus stop.
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    Sorry to hear that. I’ve heard that can be very painful. Any idea on recovery time?
    Metalhead
    Metalhead
    I am able to work from home today, so that helps. No idea on recovery time, but I do need to buy new shoes ASAP.
    Yeshuasdaughter
    Yeshuasdaughter
    magnesium oil helps for end of day pain.

    1/2 cup epsom salt
    1/2 cup boiling water
    stir until every bit of epsom salt is dissolved

    put into a spray bottle. spritz 8-10 times on painful body part. rub in.

    It is an all natural muscle relaxer and magnesium supplement. It is excellent for nerve pain.
    Metalhead
    I wish I could install a jacuzzi in the back of the house I am renting, don’t think the landlord would like that very much though.
    Metalhead
    Having an app on my phone that keeps track of what I consume has been helpful. It talked me out of getting a mocha this morning that was loaded with sugar and calories.
    Metalhead
    I feel like diving headfirst into video gaming for the next several hours until the local jazz bar opens.
    AdamG
    AdamG
    if I lived anywhere close to you, I'd be totally down for a jazz club and an iced tea.
    Metalhead
    All of my friends are too busy to talk to me today, and the only person who called back dismissed how I felt as “me feeling sorry for myself”. I am going to bed and sleeping the rest of this three day weekend.
    Metalhead
    I feel like a bottle of Maker’s Mark might help my boredom today, but that is a terrible idea.
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    I am very sure there are other things that could distract you from boredom!

    Maker’s Mark will just make your life dark. :smilingimp:
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