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Tony Ramirez

Tony Ramirez

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Forever Alone Aspie 47 From Brooklyn, NY
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  • Tony Ramirez
    I wish I could end my miserable life easy without all the crap of having of everyone saying things will get better.
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    tree
    tree
    You sound really down.
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    My life is getting worse every day. They even lost my $90 pair of glasses in the mail yesterday and I might not get a replacement because they are giving me a hassle.
    tree
    tree
    "might not" is a thing that hasn't happened.
    Tony Ramirez
    Every day, I keep waking up alive, is worse than the last. Why can't I just die in my sleep.
    tree
    tree
    When was the last time your wrote in your journal?
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    October 2023. I don't bother. I don't feel like it.
    tree
    tree
    Yeah, you do tend to base your action on your feelings.

    Feelings are a result of what you're telling yourself about events.
    Tony Ramirez
    More bad luck. I dropped my phone walking to the cafe but I don't think I chipped the screen. The screen protector looks a bit bended but the great case did protect it. Everything is going wrong in my life on top of this
    Tony Ramirez
    Yoga sucked today. It was good until I had to hear about every damn person talk about her husband her boyfriend his girlfriend his wife. I had to get the hell out of there before I made a scene that would have got me banned.
    tree
    tree
    That was good you left without making a fuss.

    Now if you could just stop telling yourself that it's terrible to hear
    people talking about their significant others, you'd be way ahead.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Good you stopped yourself. It will get easier. Trauma dumping actually serves a purpose, it helps you unload a lot of icky feelings. I think l had to trauma dump for a good 3-4 years, and l was finally free. The more we walk thru those feelings, it frees you. That's why l don't critique.
    Tony Ramirez
    My curse of women hating me is back. It started in 1995 and broke in 2000. Then it came back in 2003 and was broken in 2019. Now it's back again in 2024. I will be decrepit, more mental and broken by the time it's broken again.
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    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    I am sick of hearing people saying that crap. I heard it yesterday in life group. How the hell do these men find spouses then by freaking luck. It seems like you have better luck winning the lottery. I said I was going to start to buy a lottery ticket once a week in the new year I did not because of that fake female friendship, but I should have. My father nearly won early this year. We could have been set for life.
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    thejuice
    I'm sorry 😔. I know it's unfair the odds are stacked against you.
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    thejuice
    And it's annoying hearing the same cliches
    Tony Ramirez
    Apparently I must suddenly lack empathy with women now, the way they have been currently treating me. Feels just like college and my 20s again.
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    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    Thanks. It's like I am reverting with women or they are just hating me again all I know is my 18 20s sucked so bad I ended up wasting my 30s and I was on bad bipolar meds I did not know and gain over 150 lbs
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    Misty Avich
    I'm so sorry you're having so much unpleasantness. All I can offer is a virtual hug.
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    At least you got that. I can't believe I now feel more comfortable wanting to hangout with men like I did in my 20s. What 4 days of ostracizing with women can do to you. Too bad I could not hang out with James or Garrett.
    Tony Ramirez
    Women I don't know have been ostracizing me, treating me like dirt all day, even when I sat next to them even just me and one in yoga class only talked to the teacher after I was trying to talk in a group. I am not in a good mood.
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    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    In random get-togethers, social rules almost don't exist. Nobody is under any obligation to talk to others.
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    And I believe it. Most of the time in these places it's dead silence except for the music playing and the hosts talking. Unless a couple of casual friends walk in and talk otherwise people keep to themselves. It actually sucks and I hate it which sounds weird being autistic.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    I had one class, where our teacher actively asked us questions, and then we were more friendly with each other. But most of my classes aren't like this, and l don't really talk to most.
    Tony Ramirez
    I went to my local deli to buy a drink but I had no cash just my phone to pay but it was a $5:limit so I put my drink back but the kind women said that it's okay and she pays for the soda must have known I was stressed. I could not believe there are kind women and she did not even look the type either. ❤️
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    Misty Avich
    Is that you in your profile picture, Tony? I don't get why so many girls shun you. You look sweet, and so does your cat. I wish women in your life would accept you for who you are. I certainly would if I was a woman from one of those church clubs. If a man (or woman) is friendly and nice like you seem to be, then that's good enough for me. I'm open to being anybody's friend.
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    Yes but it doesn't matter. I always saw myself as ugly even when I saw guys uglier than me with a girl because none of them wanted to be my friend.
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    Misty Avich
    That's low self-esteem. I think nearly all people with low self-esteem see themselves as ugly but that never means they are ugly. I feel the same way about myself too.
    Tony Ramirez
    I threatened to be kicked out of the yoga studio because of my constant trauma dumping due to my trauma with girls and travel envy. I now heard this after my latest breakdown. I am losing everything in my life.
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    Masked Man
    Masked Man
    You can't cause disturbances when things do not go your way. They have every right to revoke your membership. They're a privately owned company and they can discontinue business with you if they see that you are making other customers or the workers uncomfortable. I said this before - you need to learn how to control your emotions.
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    Misty Avich
    Well you're welcome to trauma dump here, Tony. I have lots of sympathy for you and I want good things to go your way.
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    thejuice
    You'll get understanding here that you won't in the outside world
    Tony Ramirez
    It's bad in my house. I snapped. My mother won't talk to me. Says I'm useless. I wish I was dead like I should be.
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    thejuice
    Tell mother this guy on a random forum thinks that's a bit mean to say..
    tree
    tree
    Yes, it does sound harsh.
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    thejuice
    Ill never forget being called a stupid boy aged 24 by mum XD
    Tony Ramirez
    When I get home if my control freak family annoy me I am going to snap on them especially my father and will be WW3 at home.
    Tony Ramirez
    I freaking hate 2 word conversations with most single standoffish women. It's like those women they purposely do them to me to piss me off. But men and most married women will actually have longer conversations with me.
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    thejuice
    They'll have to learn social skills eventually
    Tony Ramirez
    Okay I am at my new church now where I know I am not going to be ostracized and I am already socializing. Feeling better.
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    thejuice
    I went to bar and had earache the whole time
    Tony Ramirez
    I hate it when casual friends talk loud and don't shut the hell up when you are trying to zone out of depressing ambient music, even with noise-cancelling headphones.
    Tony Ramirez
    Let's admit, my social skills really suck eggs. Actually, suck eggs is better because eggs taste good. More like rotten eggs. I see someone I talk to last week I had a pathetic 10-minute conversation she is having an over 1-hour conversation with a big ugly man that she actually wanted to hang out with casual not throw away garbage like me just a run in and leave.
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    I get this with any encounter every time. Every freaking time. That is why I can't ever have a casual female friend.
    Tony Ramirez
    Every little thing is pissing me off now. I use to be so happy not that while ago.
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    thejuice
    Do you remember what it felt like?
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    You know? You read my post history. I don't feel like repeating myself but it involved a certain Miss M I won't mention that betrayed me by well I am not letting the haters here defend her.
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    thejuice
    It's always man's fault.
    Tony Ramirez
    Seeing guys and girls outside just now as casual friends finally made me say the s word in anger. I have not swear that word in over a decade.
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    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    It must have been at least 15 years since I said that word and it was because I hurt myself badly physically.
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    Too many damn triggers here at the park. I got to rest then head to church later. Yoga was good except the students were snobbish actually they said nothing to no one not even to each other.
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    thejuice
    I hope you don't see any casual friends or snobs at church!
    Tony Ramirez
    Hanging out with my old church people talking about all the mature crap series like Narcos, Ozark, Breaking Bad and some bad Chav series on Max. I want to hang with my new church crew who likes Pokemon, dragon ball z, LOTR, star wars.
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    tree
    tree
    You went because Patricia asked you. You connect with her and her friends?
    Who was at the dinner, then? Patricia and these friends of hers?

    Because it doesn't sound like you were enjoying the gathering.
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    I am really good friends with Patricia. She helped me all those months even with the textationship. I really don't know her friends well but she knows I want to connect with people so she tells me to go to as many social gatherings but I connected much better with the new church.
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    .i told her this before I left and she understands so I know I won't go to the next monthly gathering. But she will try to find me others including volunteering
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