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Tony Ramirez

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  • I think you are all right. I need to find and start hanging out with my class including fixed income types not upper class college graduates who stress me out but people like me who did not complete higher education and have working class jobs.
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    Mary Terry
    You have a working-class job? I thought you were unemployed.
    Had a meltdown at my Thursday group yesterday when they talked about there travel plans on plane to different locations while I been stuck in this hellhole for 4 years.
    Tired
    Tired
    Whose successful crap am I rubbing in your face? I am just asking you questions, which you seem to be unable to answer. And no, neither me, nor anyone else on this forum think that you're a failure.
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    Already, one of my friends wants to help me find employment through an agency that helps autistic people find training and work. I am not going to stop her.
    jsilver256
    jsilver256
    If your friends want to do that, can they help you with finding therapy as well?
    I wasted 5 years of my life for nothing.
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    Not counting my earlier years still 0% BTW lets say puberty junior high I loved them from high school 14 till now 47 crap nothing zero 0% success.
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    Steelbookcollector217
    oh, you feel you didn't try to get a date or get a girlfriend in your teens or 20s, 30s?
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    I tried then it did not work. I gave up in my mid 20s and all 30s. Should have never bothered in my early 40s. Caused burnout textationship and more meltdowns.
    Never ever ever. And I never will 0% odds.
    Will someone actually murder me. That will be the only way I can surly die from this cruel world where women hate me.
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    Single yes and now I am so tired of trying I just want to end it.
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    Steelbookcollector217
    do you think your parents would mourn for you if you passed away? or do you think at times, your parents don't care for you at times, do feel you are a burden to your parents?
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    They would, but then they would get over it because I am a big burden and stressed just because one damn girl can't even be my true friend, never mind even get a damn girlfriend. 0% success 5 years busting my ass socializing while others did not even have to try in only months succeeding made me a real pissed off vulgar mean snappy person by now.
    I really wish I decided to end my life like I originally planned in early January, thinking it would get better when I did for a few months. What a stupid joke that was on me.
    Lets be brutally honest every damn women I been encouraging in my neighborhood and nearby all have boyfriends.
    My swearing has fully come back and if it offends anyone they can go and grow a new backbone. Deal with it. My relationship life sucks, wasting 5 years for nothing and I still can't even get a female friend, the few are never interested in hanging out solo with me ever. The rest are men or married women will only hang solo.
    I wish new men I don't know or I just meet would get the idea and stop befriended me and want to hang especially solo. I am not interested.
    T
    thejuice
    And those stupid grunting neanderthals at the yoga!
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    Every group I try to join from various faiths or not it's the same damn outcome.
    I am still having trouble sleeping after finding out I am a actual snob.
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    Steelbookcollector217
    are you saying for most of your life you never had any friends?
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    When I was younger no. In my early 20s fake friends. Now in my 40s many friends with much PTSD and trust issues. I only lost one which was a fake friend anyway but gained many true friends.
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    I take back what I said in the op.
    My mother wants me to trauma dump rumors, hate and lies on everyone I know until I have no friends left or community to go to just because she refuses to find me a therapist.
    I can't believe I am now addicted to ice coffee and going to coffee shops.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Ice coffee is so delicious.
    tree
    tree
    Liking or enjoying something isn't the same as being addicted.
    Why do I keep doing this? Smiling at Roots today, just a more positive vibe, made the cashier smile more at me and talk briefly. Even the female clientele, some, smiled back briefly and did not even seem so cold.

    I am at Dunkin' Donuts now, it really is a depressing dump, clientele and staff. I actually find coffee shops more uplifting. I was actually putting out a negative vibe at these barista's.
    What's the saying when you see someone's life looks great, but it really is not? I tried to google the answer, but I got profane answers f word results with no actual answers, so I am asking here?
    Detoxing on social media is going to be tough but I am going to slowly try.
    Judge
    Judge
    Sounds like a plan Tony. One I stick to myself. I simply got exhausted being in other inherently hostile forums over the years.
    Masaniello
    Masaniello
    I hope it works for you. I certainly don’t miss Facebook and Instagram in particular.
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    Tiktok is going to be the hardest to quit.,I am already missing it but it is actually killing my socializing with women. Just one day without it I was able to smile back and talk briefly to a female yoga student who talked back at me last week who knew me.
    I'm going to try my hardest to clean up my language here and in person no matter how much seeing guy/girl friends and couples annoy me.
    tree
    tree
    It's not just seeing them. It's what you tell yourself it mean that is annoying you.
    Per my friend Alice request I deleted all of my social media apps except YouTube since I use it for Mac videos and many other things will reset my watch history and YouTube music. I will be turning off all my tech devices per her request until morning just my phone for walking to yoga. Goodnight see you tomorrow.
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    thejuice
    brave man! good luck!
    S
    Steelbookcollector217
    you also deleted your reddit account as well?
    Misery
    Misery
    Quick suggestion: If you're finding that Youtube is still a bit too distracting in the way social media can be, look up two extensions: Unhook and DeArrow. I use both of these myself, helps keep the hypnotic Youtube viewing to a minimum so I dont go overboard.
    I broke down and swear at life group tonight when it was my turn to ask what I was great full for which was nothing nice but bad things and luck. One women got offended. The other comfort. I don't care if I been tight for 2 years let them kick me out.
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    thejuice
    im about to explode with anger about my situation atm.

    what they get offended about!!
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    Using the s word in anger and calling God a a-hole. Because of all the bad luck I had this week I posted here.
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    Steelbookcollector217
    what happend exactly? did you just start cursing in a public setting?
    Should I write negative reviews to all the coffee shops that treated me like dirt that I visited this past weeks that gave me more PTSD or is that not right thing to do?
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    Most of the staff is great. That's why I am not writing no negatives reviews due to the rude clientele.
    T
    thejuice
    Ostracism is a fun word, but not fun to be on the receiving end of!
    T
    thejuice
    Sometimes you can write a post and then never send it.
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