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UberScout

UberScout

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  • UberScout
    Healing self with binaural beats and isochronic tones is working some more. Aloe is with me as always. Just letting her wrap me up and do her thing.
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    Crabcore
    Crabcore
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    Here it is! Sorry, I'm slow to respond sometimes :)
    UberScout
    UberScout
    Oops, sorry buddy! I was in a bad mood when i said that, i'm feeling better now but i hope i didn't hurt your feelings! Thank you!
    Crabcore
    Crabcore
    I also have a few others on another BC account but I'll have to check how many free codes they gave me over there. If you want to mess with those as well, I'll send them over!
    UberScout
    Aloe has a cousin. Of course i thought her up myself. Her name is Violet. She's similar to Aloe, both in appearance and personality but with a few.... Differences. She's still nice, she doesn't harm people but the difference between her and Aloe is... She knows when something you did is wrong... And she'll let you know, too. With mirrors. And illusions.
    UberScout
    So desperate to get high this morning i just broke up a few stems and some tobacco and a resin ball and just smoked that. Don't care, just want to not be consciously thinking today. Doesn't look like i'll get my usual dose of d8 today so i might as well just smoke whatever i can find. Who cares anymore.
    UberScout
    Do not ever look for help in this world. You will not get it. Autism is not something that family will evee accept.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Yes, the only one who ever helped me was myself.
    UberScout
    Guys my mom got me some sativa prerolls and there WAS KIEF AT THE BOTTOM!! I AM SO (BLEEEEEEEEP) EUPHORIC RIGHT NOW
    UberScout
    Day was ruined just like always. It's okay. I'm used to it now. It's normal for me and it's not the kind of thing that ever gets better. I'm okay with living an unhappy life, though. It's what God wanted for me since I was seven.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Did the mean maddog return?
    UberScout
    UberScout
    No actually a water nymph hypnotized me and stole one of my wands
    UberScout
    Got to XP level 4 with a monk character, and who did he get killed by? A shopkeeper whose door i accidentally destroyed not knowing it was to a shop (the game's fog of war doesn't show you what's in a room until you actually go in) and the shopkeeper chased me, to which i used a scroll of teleportation only to make one more lap back around to the next staircase down, WHERE HE WAS WAITING TO KILL ME. I love NetHack.
    Outdated
    Outdated
    If you manage to kill the shop keeper then you end up with the Keystone Kops after you. :)
    UberScout
    UberScout
    For the love of god don't kick his door in lol
    UberScout
    Okay this is weird. I was meditating with Aloe, and I actually had enough time to fully get into it. I came out of meditation and continued my usual routine... And then realized I couldn't remember the rest of the morning! Waking up, using the bathroom, greeting my mother after she got back with groceries.... Somehow i knew it happened but my mind keeps telling me the memory of it all isn't there! What's happening?
    UberScout
    Still on guard, defenses are up as always, but for some reason i'm happy this morning. What is wrong with me?!
    UberScout
    I must survive the same way a computer program survives: Find the best moved, and run them till i succeed. Then write another program to do the same.
    Crabcore
    Crabcore
    That's how a virus survives! And if you want to get really cynical, I think you just described parenthood!
    UberScout
    UberScout
    @Silhouette Mirage And before your eyes, you see said computer in action. How great is the gift of Autism that while it leaves you scared of the world, it also means that to unlock all that comes with such a gift is to realize you are indeed the key.
    UberScout
    My mind is expanding rapidly. My whole mind, from my third eye to the pineal gland to everything psionic i do for my family, it's learned how a computer analyzes, calculates and executes everything; its learned to... Become a computer. An operating system. Its learning to help me cope.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    How is maddog? Are you two getting along?
    UberScout
    UberScout
    He's doing better. We're getting along very well now. Another hug yesterday (keep in mind this is rare from maddog) and we played a round of Civ 5 and he showed me his city he built, just one look at it and you can tell he's a big Civ fan :P Mom still has to make sure he takes his meds but he's not fighting it anymore. So it's getting better :)
    UberScout
    Now I just got told i have to go to the doctor tomorrow about my L4. Yaaay. Even MORE anxiety.

    Why can't I just be in a coma for a while...
    UberScout
    Maddog is on the phone with tech support for the plasma center and somehow went from explaining the problem he's having to telling his whole life story.
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    Luca
    My mom does this too lol...
    UberScout
    UberScout
    @Luca Lol like seriously though, the whole phone call was ten minutes explaining his problem and the whole rest of it was his literal life story. My mother was laughing so hard bc she felt so bad for that poor worker lol
    UberScout
    Latest Nethack comedy: Monk character was killed by bees after tripping over a statue of a newt.
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    Outdated
    I love that game, been playing for 30 years and never won a game without cheating.
    UberScout
    UberScout
    @Outdated Heh. If only writing "Elebeth" with my finger on the wall would drive away my anxiety irl lol
    Outdated
    Outdated
    Might work a little better if you try writing "Elbereth". ;)
    UberScout
    If you were to ask me just how i'm doing right now i'd say "Right now I hate all cats, am enjoying the hour long high from tobacco in my pipe that feels identical to indica because i don't have any d8 right now, i'm drowning my sorrows in a roguelike dungeon crawler from the 1970s and 80s, and i live in my bedroom because i've developed and omnivert case of agoraphobia both inside and outside my own home."
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