This is a thread that I have been avoiding. I haven't really talked out loud about this event either.
I went to a conservative synagogue on Shabbat, and talked to a few people after service. Everyone there just gave kind, sympathetic eyes, got really quiet, not many words, and said kosher scrolls are for sale upstairs.
Antisemitic abuse is so expected in the Jewish community, that it seems if no one gets hurt, we just quietly endure, overcome, check on each other, replace the damaged, pray, and go on.
My heart is a little broken, and it has been.
I don't like thinking about this. It scares me. In a way that can't be overcome. It's the fear of the inevitable.
Thank you guys for your kind words. Most of you were really kind. i'm surprised at how many people responded. But also shocked at what some people said.
It's a hard thing to think about. I don't know if I'll be returning to this thread.