It is making me sick hearing it. So far, I have not "found my tribe". I found nothing but misery going to nothing but new social groups trying and trying. Getting sick mentally and physically. Mentally, causing me to go on higher antidepressants and antipsychotics. Physically causing me to actually catch more colds, which before I once went three years without catching a cold. Never mind the body aches and the physical headaches and the cramps and the agonizing pain I get in my body.
It's always the same thing when I try a new social group. I try to talk to people, but I am always spoken over. It gets to the point where every person is engaged in a conversation, even people right next to me and yes I try to talk to them, but I am often ignored and spoken over. Then I just give up and end up putting on headphone every time to drown out their chatter. This happens last Friday when I joined a new Meetup cooking club that my "two friends" were in. Not only after my meal was not even in the picture, but I was the only one without a picture. Even the two newcomers engaged in detail conversations and the new women just said glad to meet you saying goodbye but meanwhile talked to everyone including a "shy guy" who sure knew how to talk.
I am tired of every group containing fake introverts who might possibly be autistic. The only autistic I meet IRL are level 3 worse than my sister than can't even talk sentence and just make noises. Everyone else looks like they might be a level 1 until they start talking, then they are surely normal.
