let me die please

[Roxiee]

These pics I was so happy in but now I'm so distraught I hate my life

 

[Owliet]

No one else will love me except from him, I love him he abuses me yes hits me but I love him, it's normal.

Let me guess ...he may have told you along the lines that “no one loves you as much as I do or ever will”? Listen, you seem awfully young, so I’m going to break this down. It’s a tactic that they use to manipulate you. They are so weak that they need to tell someone this so they can feel strong. He doesn’t and has never loved you. Rape is not about love, it’s about power and domination. That’s what he loves. His abuse towards you is nothing more than asserting himself over you because he knows that he can get away with it because he’s made you think that you need him. Hitting you and any other form of physical abuse is NOT normal. I get it, I really DO get it, but it’s not normal. You don’t need him. Your self worth is not based around his needs and because he assaulted you, I’m surprised that he was allowed anywhere near you if you were referred to the unit that you’re currently in by the police because he should have zero contact with you. You need to think about your kid only.

 

[Roxiee]

Let me guess ...he may have told you along the lines that “no one loves you as much as I do or ever will”? Listen, you seem awfully young, so I’m going to break this down. It’s a tactic that they use to manipulate you. They are so weak that they need to tell someone this so they can feel strong. He doesn’t and has never loved you. Rape is not about love, it’s about power and domination. That’s what he loves. His abuse towards you is nothing more than asserting himself over you because he knows that he can get away with it because he’s made you think that you need him. Hitting you and any other form of physical abuse is NOT normal. I get it, I really DO get it, but it’s not normal. You don’t need him. Your self worth is not based around his needs and because he assaulted you, I’m surprised that he was allowed anywhere near you if you were referred to the unit that you’re currently in by the police because he should have zero contact with you. You need to think about your kid only.

I am thinking about my daughter.

 

[Sarah S]

I honestly need to get out here, I'm spiralling, I'm hurting I feel like im gonna make sure I'm dead I'm honestly too broken to care anymore.

My boyfriend called me fat and he said he wishes he never ever got me pregnant.

He broke up with me. I'm not good enough for anyone,

you rape me and make me feel like im ugly which I am, how is it fair?

I'm broken and hurting and you say you wish we never had a daughter and that you wish you still had raped me.

Roxie dear. I'm terribly sorry you seem to have been treated in this awful way. BUT TRUST me when i say you DONT want to take the route of suicide its not have not will not ever be the right way to take (im speaking from own experience as i have been suicidal since i was a we girl and since a few years upgraded to SEVERE so i do understand how bad you obviously must feel right now. added to that youre apparently pregnant & you feel you have been raped.

He isent worth anything in my book so the last thing on youre mind should be him dear.

YOU are not good enough for him dear.

Simple answer it's not fair at all. BUT NON of this is youre fault Roxiee. and whether youre somewhat more built so to say or not doesent have diddly to do with anything. Not to mention youre also pregnant. And beaty don't comes from the outside it comes from the inside. So, NO dear youre NOT ugly nor do you in any way shape or form deserving this treatment.

Roxiee dear that's just youre inner demons trying and apparently for now manage to get their BS heard. NON of its its true and if you try to really listen to youre true self im shore you will find it that im actually right on this.

There's no question you have been treated very badly and of course youre entitled to feel bad. BUT from what i have read up on you before i actually replied here i would also say you CAN get thru this with lots of suport and help. And NO dear you DONT want to die what you want is to feel better and you can, but it will also take allot of determination and strength and hard work from youre side to get there Roxiee & of course we are also all here to try to suport you as best we can in all this mess so youre not all alone in the world nor are you unwanted and don't matter if youre gone and no one would miss you. YOU MATTER and we do care about you Roxiee and together we CAN get you back again IF you want to. (Regardless of what kind of diagnosis you might have)

And the only reason i dare saying all this is it takes a broken soule to see and understand and be able to help another broken soul (outside the professionells obviously)

And i can only agree 101 % with Owliets excellent above reply (standing up and applaud )

 

[Owliet]

These pics I was so happy in but now I'm so distraught I hate my life

Sorry, I know that this will sound mean but he looks like a complete waste of space. No wonder he tried to control you because he’s got nothing going for him.

Lola is safe, she's in safe hands I face time her every day and she makes me smile yes he hits me pushes me down stairs but I'm stronger then him Lola needs me he don't deserve m3

EXACTLY! You are stronger than he will ever be. And your child will be even more because she has you as a mum. You’re a survivor Roxiee. Don’t let him win.

Wouldn't let the man look after a dog-pen let alone a child. Back home in the South I used to hear stories about guys who were like that. If the girl's families got them--usually the body was never found.

(Edit--This is not advice.)

Fully agree.

He is so angry I don't deserve him though!

He doesn’t deserve YOU!

 

[Roxiee]

Sorry, I know that this will sound mean but he looks like a complete waste of space. No wonder he tried to control you because he’s got nothing going for him.

EXACTLY! You are stronger than he will ever be. And your child will be even more because she has you as a mum. You’re a survivor Roxiee. Don’t let him win.


Fully agree.


He doesn’t deserve YOU!

I AM BETGER THEN HIM!

 

[Owliet]

I AM BETGER THEN HIM!

Definitely. Infinitively. 100000000000000+

 

[Owliet]

And i can only agree 101 % with Owliets exlent above reply (standing up and apploud )

thanks SarahS. Sometimes I have my moments.

 

[Sarah S]

I am thinking about my daughter.

Good now USE this in youre favour to find the inner strength to start youre way back again Roxiee. If not for youre self so for youre daughter.

And for the record youre BEUTIFULL and NOONE has the right to abuse you in any way shape or form it's that simple. Roxiee He needs a real good arse whooping in my opinion, so he learns how to treat a girl

 

[Roxiee]

Good now USE this in youre favour to find the inner strength to start youre way back again Roxiee. If not for youre self so for youre daughter.

And for the record youre BEUTIFULL and NOONE has the right to abuse you in any way shape or form it's that simple. Roxiee He needs a real good arse whooping in my opinion, so he learns how to treat a girl

I'm not beautiful.

 

[Gerontius]

Sorry, I know that this will sound mean but he looks like a complete waste of space. No wonder he tried to control you because he’s got nothing going for him.

Certainly his looks aren't going for him that's for sure. He looks like an off-brand of the "Island Boys" mixed with Logan Paul. Dregs of the dregs. It speaks of Instagram to me; too much time on Instagram--one of those real two-dimensional little men who almost talks in emojis. The kind who never grow up.

Losing that dude was a good idea if it at least improves the quality of your family photos.

 

[Sarah S]

I'm not beautiful.

As i said before Roxiee i look on the inside NOT the outside. And yes, based on youre picture i still say you are dear.

Broken but beautiful

 

[Luca]

You are not ugly. You are beautiful.

I don’t think I’ve ever felt comfortable sharing this on here before, but I think it might help.

I used to do casual hookups a lot. I have really bad self-esteem and I thought that the only way I could feel validated was through sexual attention.
I guess I somehow found all the scummiest men in my area and chose them. Some of them were physically and sexually abusive, but almost every single one of them was emotionally and verbally abusive.
I’m surprised I didn’t get pregnant, but I’m glad I didn’t, because that would’ve been bringing a child into a horrible situation.
I stopped the hookups about a year ago because I realized that I don’t really enjoy sex (turns out that I’m not interested in sex at all [asexual.]). I also don’t enjoy being objectified, and called fat, ugly, stupid, made fun of for looking too neutral, and [insert any derogatory term for “obese” and “autistic” here.]
I don’t need those kind of men in my life. I would rather be lonely and single than be treated like absolute crap.

You don’t deserve that either. A guy who treats you like that is NOT a boyfriend and NOT a father.

You need to look out for yourself and your daughter. You both come first.

And you can come on here and talk to me anytime you need anything. I’m here for you and I know what it’s like to go through that.
I also know what it’s like to be sent to a mental hospital… that’s something I’ll share at some point too.

Lots of love
- Luca

 

[Roxiee]

As i said before Roxiee i look on the inside NOT the outside. And yes, based on youre picture i still say you are dear.

Broken but beautiful

Awwww ty

 

[Roxiee]

I'm so useless goodbye

 

[Sarah S]

I'm so useless goodbye

No youre not and you know it Roxiee

 

[Roxiee]

No youre not and you know it Roxiee

I am now I am leaving the hospital.

 

[Sarah S]

Well then if youre leaving the hospital & you & the staff and doctors etc... Feel you are well enough to continue at home (NOT at his place obviously) that's a good thing it means youre on youre way back again, and NOT that you are ugly or worthless. But you also need to have some suport at home around you.

 

[Owliet]

I am now I am leaving the hospital.

I strongly recommend that you give it another try as you seem to be going in a viscous circle of emotions right now and I know how that can be but you are currently in a place that can help you with this and your Sexual Assault. As you seem to be flittering between messages of determination, low moods and even lower moods, REALLY think you should stay where you are. If you need outside support, surely your mom can help you out?

 

[Gerontius]

I'm a bit worried about your safety if you go back home.

You might need to be a little more stable, and I'm scared that that one guy might harm you.