The Circle

[Arashi222]

First off Congrats Bay! That is wonderful News!

Second Kelly: I hope things start to get a bit easier with you're daughter. I bet that the Play therapy will help....You and your daughter are in my thoughts. I know at one point you said she was going to see people to get diagnosed with AS maybe? Is that gonna happen soon? I used to be that way. I had meltdowns just like your daughter when I was little. You sound like a wonderful mommy.

As to my day...: It was good if not a bit overwhelmeing and exhausting. I love hanging out with my new friends. Its nice because I can talk or be quiet or whatever and it doesn't matter. But its still more socialization than I've attempted in a while. I get super quiet in situations where I feel overwhelmed and a bit trapped. We went to this great doll store its full of stuff. I bought a new dollie dress too. But we had to be in the car for 45 minutes and everyone was starting to get a bit fried. I got home and things started to chill a bit but now its all stormy here and I hate storms. But all in all my day was fine.

 

[Kelly]

Alpaca it sounds really good so far, keep it up

Bay that is awesome news

Arashi - I have no idea what's going on as far as AS is concerned, the Dr said she'd send a letter out to us detailing everything they are going to do but nothing has arrived so far. She was being so weird about Asperger's and when I was going over Kyoko's problems with her she kept asking me things that are more related to autism "Did she have any developmental problems? was she talking by age 2?" etc etc. I'll have to wait and see what happens and what is said in her letter.

Sounds like a nice trip Arashi, can't wait to see your doll's new dress

I am so hot! I hate the heat and the 'british summer' has finally arrived so I'll be spending the next few months in my underwear :lol: I still have to phone up the local secondary school (high school) to arrange swimming lessons for the little one. She was having lessons at a different school but then the teacher upset her by making her jump in the pool and..well you know how us aspie's can over react to things. Massive meltdowns over her lessons so we had to just give up but she seems ready to tackle it again and she's been to this particular pool at the school a few times for pool parties and 2 of her friends will be in the same class so she should be fine.

 

[Bay]

Arashi, I think that quiet is okay when you are feeling over-stretched. Sometimes I just have to be quiet too. Often, in fact. The trick for me is to keep my mind from wandering too much when I retreat a bit from the conversation or activity. It's embarrassing when I try to tu e back inane I have no idea what everyone is talking about.

Kelly I am surprised to hear that it is so hot there. I have been to England during two heat waves and it is tough to live without air conditioning when it's in the 90s F. Swimming lessons sound divine under the circumstances!

 

[Arashi222]

Alpaca it sounds really good so far, keep it up

Bay that is awesome news

Arashi - I have no idea what's going on as far as AS is concerned, the Dr said she'd send a letter out to us detailing everything they are going to do but nothing has arrived so far. She was being so weird about Asperger's and when I was going over Kyoko's problems with her she kept asking me things that are more related to autism "Did she have any developmental problems? was she talking by age 2?" etc etc. I'll have to wait and see what happens and what is said in her letter.

Sounds like a nice trip Arashi, can't wait to see your doll's new dress

I am so hot! I hate the heat and the 'british summer' has finally arrived so I'll be spending the next few months in my underwear :lol: I still have to phone up the local secondary school (high school) to arrange swimming lessons for the little one. She was having lessons at a different school but then the teacher upset her by making her jump in the pool and..well you know how us aspie's can over react to things. Massive meltdowns over her lessons so we had to just give up but she seems ready to tackle it again and she's been to this particular pool at the school a few times for pool parties and 2 of her friends will be in the same class so she should be fine.

Yes I know how us Aspies tend to overreact. I am surprised that she hasn't told you anything about her thoughts. but maybe she is trying to start going by what the new DSM is gonna have as Autism rather than AS you know? Well I wish you luck with it. I hope things get better or at least some anwsers for you. I'll keep thinking about you.

Ewww I hate hot...but I generally don't get hot I am a freezebaby I get super duper cold. Actually its pouring rain here and normally at this time of day I would be heading off to work on the bus but I got lucky my grandfather is gonna drive me in the pouring rain and lightening so I don't have to walk. So now I don't have to leave until 3pm. which is nice.

Arashi, I think that quiet is okay when you are feeling over-stretched. Sometimes I just have to be quiet too. Often, in fact. The trick for me is to keep my mind from wandering too much when I retreat a bit from the conversation or activity. It's embarrassing when I try to tu e back inane I have no idea what everyone is talking about.

Kelly I am surprised to hear that it is so hot there. I have been to England during two heat waves and it is tough to live without air conditioning when it's in the 90s F. Swimming lessons sound divine under the circumstances!

Yah I tend to get super quiet. Its hard though when you do because then I just feel stupid for jumping back into the conversation. All well. My friend was getting overwhelmed herself and she gets snippy when that happens I understand that but she wasn't snapping at me she was snapping at her partner. So I don't know...

I am gonna take some pics maybe tonight of the new dollie dress. I was gonna last night but ugh I was so tired. So soon I will take some pics of her in her new dress. Its adorable. There is this little shop in Blaine MN that is called Mrs. B's and she has all sorts of dollie things. Most for Porcelain dolls but its awesome because she has clothes all over the place.

 

[Kelly]

Kelly I am surprised to hear that it is so hot there. I have been to England during two heat waves and it is tough to live without air conditioning when it's in the 90s F. Swimming lessons sound divine under the circumstances!

It just suddenly became hot the past few days, last week it was freezing cold and raining so it probably seems hotter then it is. Just checked and it's in the mid 70's, I bet it's only going to get hotter as well, I just hope next weekend isn't too bad as we have a long car journey to do.

Yes I know how us Aspies tend to overreact. I am surprised that she hasn't told you anything about her thoughts. but maybe she is trying to start going by what the new DSM is gonna have as Autism rather than AS you know? Well I wish you luck with it. I hope things get better or at least some anwsers for you. I'll keep thinking about you.

Ewww I hate hot...but I generally don't get hot I am a freezebaby I get super duper cold. Actually its pouring rain here and normally at this time of day I would be heading off to work on the bus but I got lucky my grandfather is gonna drive me in the pouring rain and lightening so I don't have to walk. So now I don't have to leave until 3pm. which is nice.

The doc just took lots of details down about her behaviours and anxieties etc but didn't mention getting any kind of diagnosis or anything so it'll be interesting to see what's in her letter. I've also just realised that I typed my daughter's name in my last post so I may as well refer to her as Kyoko now. Anyway she knows herself she's not like the other kids in school, a few weeks ago she said something about thinking differently and I asked her what she meant and she said she was different to the other kids that she was odd and didn't think the same things as the other kids. I asked her to expand on it and she said the other kids talk about things that she doesn't find interesting or understand and she's the only one who gets 'dizzy' when there is lots of noise. From what I've been reading lately it could potentially take years to get her a diagnosis but I'm not putting her through all that when she needs help now, so if the Dr messes us about we're just going to pay and go privately for an assessment.

I'm really bad with extremes of temperature, I get hot easily and cold easily but I much prefer being a bit too cold then a bit too hot because it's simple enough to wrap up in a few blankets wheras in extreme heat the best I can do is go naked (inside obviously lol) and have lots of fans on (as well as about 3 cold showers a day)...I wish we had air conditioning!

 

[WildCat]

Quit nicotine and/or nicotine related products about a month ago. I've been feeling somewhat like crap lately and I've been trying to let it slide for so long...it's like a roller coaster, one day I'm convinced I have a terminal illness, and the next week I'm doing fairly well. I'd schedule a checkup if I actually knew how to navigate my way through healthcare...haven't been able to do so ever since I started working for insurance.

I've been trying to improve my diet by cutting back on caffeine and junk foods. I used to down like 2-3 energy drinks a shift/day, no troubles...now I don't know if caffeine is starting to work against me now that I've cut back. See, here we go again to the "terminal illness" ordeal :/ also been anticipating (as usual, since this hasn't changed) what the hell I'm going to do with myself 2, 5, or 10 years from now. My job is becoming more and more demanding or so it seems and I'm not sure how much longer I'm going to last there. I think the stress and the 4 or 5 something years having worked nights are somehow starting to take a toll on my body, slowly but surely. If I do get fired or laid off, at least I could say I actually had a job for once in my lifetime...I imagine many people in my position, with my mental composition and my attitude aren't faring too well, assuming by "well" we mean a steady paying job or something equally constructive (like college, for example), basic life skills, etc. and assuming any of them are even self-aware at all (which, well, I'd rather not elaborate and draw any assumptions). Given someone who had developmental issues at an early age, I've done more and developed further than was expected of me by any professional...perhaps now is the time I set the bar higher before I grow old and cranky and begin to follow suit with the rest of my deceased/aging family?

Well, there's a slice of my life for whomever might be interested. Anyone else?

 

[Alpaca]

I'd recommend exercise to deal with the stress of quitting Nicotine. That's what I did when I quit. As for working nights, I feel you as I do it too. Tho I tend to stay up well into day...sometimes all day.

My day was crappy. I couldn't sleep. Finally fell asleep. woke up three hours later...sick. I sent a message to the only girl ever to meet all my prerequisites for dating. ie smart, funny, sweet hearted, socially/environmentally conscience and healthy living. It basically details me being an Aspie and some of my anxiety issues and all.....now I am terrified to check my messages.

so now I'm gonna lock myself in my room, pop some nyquill tabs and hide under my blankets until I fall asleep.

Paca out.

 

[Bay]

Jonathan, I used to smoke. I think it can take months for the cigarette toxins to work themselves out of your system. Nicotine isn't the only toxin in cigarettes. They also have ammonia in them, among other things. While those toxins were working themselves out of my body, there were days when I didn't feel my best. I just tried to ride them out as best as I could. After a few months, I realized that I was feeling better over all. You will too.

 

[epath13]

Interesting article and video. I've just been thinking that I'm feeling a little down. I've felt like this before, after eating chocolate every day for prolonged period of time. I also noticed that when I stopped eating chocolate in a week or so there're major positive changes in my mood. The article about that but also about study, which has revealed that certain parts of a brain shrink when person suffers from depression and that a new type of medication can make those parts regain normal size. I think that type of medication can also help some people with Autism... have to quit junk eating, need to switch to healthy food... But I love chocolate but... I know in the end it makes me feel bad... weird, huh?
here's the article and the video:
Rich, fatty comfort foods can lead to depression, study finds - The Globe and Mail

 

[Arashi222]

It just suddenly became hot the past few days, last week it was freezing cold and raining so it probably seems hotter then it is. Just checked and it's in the mid 70's, I bet it's only going to get hotter as well, I just hope next weekend isn't too bad as we have a long car journey to do
The doc just took lots of details down about her behaviours and anxieties etc but didn't mention getting any kind of diagnosis or anything so it'll be interesting to see what's in her letter. I've also just realised that I typed my daughter's name in my last post so I may as well refer to her as Kyoko now. Anyway she knows herself she's not like the other kids in school, a few weeks ago she said something about thinking differently and I asked her what she meant and she said she was different to the other kids that she was odd and didn't think the same things as the other kids. I asked her to expand on it and she said the other kids talk about things that she doesn't find interesting or understand and she's the only one who gets 'dizzy' when there is lots of noise. From what I've been reading lately it could potentially take years to get her a diagnosis but I'm not putting her through all that when she needs help now, so if the Dr messes us about we're just going to pay and go privately for an assessment.

I'm really bad with extremes of temperature, I get hot easily and cold easily but I much prefer being a bit too cold then a bit too hot because it's simple enough to wrap up in a few blankets wheras in extreme heat the best I can do is go naked (inside obviously lol) and have lots of fans on (as well as about 3 cold showers a day)...I wish we had air conditioning!

Well first of all your daughters name is really pretty and unique I like it alot. Second of all...I hope you get you're answers soon. It sounds like she is a lot like I was at her age. Knowing something isn't right but not knowing what to do about it.

I too am senstive to heat or cold...But I tend to be a freezebaby so I tend to be mostly cold.

My day was really really busy. It was so busy...and its not gonna slow down until Wednesday. Sigh. Finished my book...threw it across the room ticked that my fav. characters broke up.

 

[Kelly]

Well first of all your daughters name is really pretty and unique I like it alot. Second of all...I hope you get you're answers soon. It sounds like she is a lot like I was at her age. Knowing something isn't right but not knowing what to do about it.

I too am senstive to heat or cold...But I tend to be a freezebaby so I tend to be mostly cold.

My day was really really busy. It was so busy...and its not gonna slow down until Wednesday. Sigh. Finished my book...threw it across the room ticked that my fav. characters broke up.

Thanks Her name is japanese and means mirror/reflection which we thought was great because she will be a reflection of us. We almost called her Akiko btu then saying it made me think of the whale from free willy and yeah...not happening. So we went for Kyoko, although I often call her kooky or yoko.

That sucks about your book, I hate it when something changes so drastically in a series and it kinda ruins it for you.

Had a crazy day yesterday, so I think I mentioned on here that my husband really really wanted a snake (it's his new obsession) and I wanted one too because I like snakes. So we were supposed to be driving to the specialist reptile centre just to look and get an idea of the colour morphs of corn snakes and have a chat about the viv setup etc. Within 20 minutes we'd held a variety of baby corn snakes but we both agreed the snow and lavender ones were just stunning and sooo friendly. I was a bit bummed because he only wanted to get one and he was set on the lavender and I loved the snow one. Whilst talking to the assistant she said that in her experience of keeping snakes for over 15 years the corns tend to do better in pairs but it was entirely up to us. My face lit up and my husband didn't hesitate and said we wanted 2, then we looked at vivariums and priced up how much it would all come to. Now here's the thing my husband is always reluctant to buy ANYTHING I have to talk him into things, even stuff he desperately wants he will hesitate about(and then thank me later for convincing him). So imagine my surprise when he says "we HAVE to get them, I don't care how much it is I want them", so in the end we bought the vivarium, decor etc etc and the 2 snakes for about ?400.

So that's our savings completely gone, his laptop broke a few weeks ago so we got him a new one, he saw some shoes on Friday so we bought them he had his haircut too, he's been on a right old spending spree :lol: It's worth it though because his face when I said it was fine to get it all just lit up and he was literally shaking with excitement (and I admit I was very excited too).

We didn't bring it home with us though, the viv wouldn't fit in the car so his stepdad will pick that up tomorrow in his car and bring it over. The snakes are staying with the reptile place until we have the viv setup and for the two of them to get used to each other(they stuck them in together after we said we wanted both). Now I need to think of a name for my snow, we were thinking up joke names in the car on the way home. I suggested Nagini and Voldermort, my husband said we should call them bo and luke and get a mini general lee for the viv and then we just got really silly with names(Sid and Cleopatra).

There may be friction though because I'm very much about natural habitats and having things as close to their natural environment as possible, he however almost crapped his pants when he saw a scooby doo haunted house and mystery machine decorations (they are for fish tanks but same difference really) on a pet website. We are going to the local pet superstore tomorrow to see what they have, I want to get some artificial plants, vines and wood, he wants a skull, scooby doo stuff and some easter island style statues :rolleyes2:

 

[Bay]

Love the names of your snakes, Kelly! Sid and Cleopatra, too funny. They sound beautiful.

Although it is a holiday weekend here in the States, the partner is all about chores today so it will be errands, followed by laundry and working in the garden. We'll be having a traditional US style family cookout tonight, with burgers, hotdogs, potato salad and strawberry rhubarb pie for dessert. Yum.

 

[Gomendosi]

Kelly, unless I miss my guess, Sid & Cleopatra are a reference to "Carry On Cleo" yeah?

Bay, can you Fed Ex me a hot dog and slice of strawberry rhubarb pie please, I am hungry now despite being on the way to bed ; ]

 

[Kelly]

I don't know Gomendosi, I suggested Cleopatra and my husband said Sid and we just went downhill from there (but I get the reference). We had george and zippy at one point (kids programme - rainbow), sharky & george, He-man & she-ra. Then we got a bit sensible again with Boris(Karloff) & Bela (Lugosi) but then I said everyone would think Bela was named after that Twilight character and that would annoy me, plus I'd had some gourami fish called bela and boris so I said I was leaning more towards a japanese name. Then Kyoko chipped in with "You could call one of them Kyoko, that's japanese or sushi or aikido or chopsticks or Tokyo" :lol:

I think I've decided on Hiroyuki, I had 3; Izumi, Hiroyuki and just Yuki and I've been saying them over and over and Hiroyuki appeals the most, it means heavy snowfall and if I shorten it to Yuki that means snow so it's pretty ideal really.

 

[Bay]

Kelly, unless I miss my guess, Sid & Cleopatra are a reference to "Carry On Cleo" yeah?

Bay, can you Fed Ex me a hot dog and slice of strawberry rhubarb pie please, I am hungry now despite being on the way to bed ; ]

Hot dogs and pie on their way, Gomendosi!

 

[Alpaca]

staying home from work two nights in a row has me borderline bat-**** looey at the moment. Basically sat around overthinking all my problems. Now I feel completely isolated and lonely. I need to burn off this frustration, but I'm still getting over the sickness. Can't believe I'm actually looking forward to working tonight.

 

[Arashi222]

@Kelly: Yah I kinda figured it was Japanese its so pretty. I have an obsession with Japan. I am seriously love with that country. I took Japanese as my college langauge and my family keeps telling me I was born in the wrong country...because of my love for it. I just think You're daughters name is pretty. Its cute with the meaning behind it too. I am happy you guys got your snakes. Sounds like you both really really wanted them.


@Bay: Ohhh I want some tooo! I have to work on Monday...so no fun stuff for me...

@Alpaca: Oooo I hope you feel betters soon.

My day was ****. First of all I found out yesterday that I was allergic to my shampoo. SO I had to go to work with hives all over my scalp and down my back which sucked. I got my first beetle bite of the season. I don't usually get bit my mosquito nooooo i get bitten by beetles instead.
I watched a really great but sad movie called April Showers. It always reminds me of my friend that I lost back in 2007 even though the movie isn't about what happened to her. I also Watched The woman in black which was a really good movie reminded me of RoseRed. It was pretty busy today at work and people were just being stupid. I hate when people can't read coupons or usually refuse to. I am struggling to massively understand why my ex-friends mom is soo nice to me still seems to care about me but her daughter is such a big....yah Fill in with whatever you want. I just get tired of her crap. I get tired of her ignoring me and treating me like I am some freak. I get tired of her making me feel like I can't go back to the deli to get real food when she is working that she told me she would civil toward me and hasn't been civil towards me since October of last year. It wouldn't bother me so much except that I do have to work with her and she makes it miserable.

but other than that life's great.

 

[Alpaca]

Best song I've come across like five minutes ago. It basically is supporting my current belief system of perseverance and the quest for excellence in life.

 

[Alpaca]

I told my best friend (bruthafromothamotha) about my condition today. I think he honestly understands because he knows me better than most, but it still is a lot to grasp. I just hope it helps people understand me more. Maybe, his being Bi-polar makes it easier for him as well. This is the friend that, for whatever reason, I opened up to back in high school. Our beliefs on how people should treat each other and what a real "man" should be like are what we hit it off on. Because of him (and a few punk rockers along the way) I was able to become more comfortable opening up to people and really learned how to express my emotions. Basically the only non-family male that I've ever told that I love.

p.s. is it wrong that I set people up to make them believe I'm gonna be "coming out of the closet" about gayness to kinda.....mess with them? I do it because deep inside I'm actually a ****-headed smart-ass and many people have accused me of being gay. (Not that I have a problem with the gay community. I actually like them as people and sympathize with them because they too are born different and treated as such. plus, I appreciate the symmetry in their clothing style.)

 

[epath13]

I told my best friend (bruthafromothamotha) about my condition today. I think he honestly understands because he knows me better than most, but it still is a lot to grasp. I just hope it helps people understand me more. Maybe, his being Bi-polar makes it easier for him as well. This is the friend that, for whatever reason, I opened up to back in high school. Our beliefs on how people should treat each other and what a real "man" should be like are what we hit it off on. Because of him (and a few punk rockers along the way) I was able to become more comfortable opening up to people and really learned how to express my emotions. Basically the only non-family male that I've ever told that I love.

p.s. is it wrong that I set people up to make them believe I'm gonna be "coming out of the closet" about gayness to kinda.....mess with them? I do it because deep inside I'm actually a ****-headed smart-ass and many people have accused me of being gay. (Not that I have a problem with the gay community. I actually like them as people and sympathize with them because they too are born different and treated as such. plus, I appreciate the symmetry in their clothing style.)

Did you tell him "love you man" while sharing a few bottles of beer sorry, that's just a picture that crossed my mind when I read this it's nice that people actually able to do that, for me love is way too complicated

and I know how great it can be when you open up to people you know or care about and realize that they're absolutely fine with you the way you are and with whatever differences you have it can be very uplifting especially if you've faced disappointment and discrimination before...