Right in the center of my hometown, when I was little, there was a lovely meadow that rose up to a small hill, dotted with a grove of oaks and cottonwoods. There was a lonely shepherd's house at the top.
There was a hand-hewn oak wood fence all around the ten or so acres, inside which, a herd of sheep would graze. The scene was always the same, unless the collie was rounding them up, or the old shepherd was walking among his flock, surveying the day.
No matter what was happening in my little world, just passing by in the car, and watching the sheep would quiet my soul. It's still something I meditate on.
I came home to visit when I was about twenty-two. The town had become a city, and they had built a mall. There was an Edward's Cinemas and gigantic sprawling parking lot, where the sheep would graze. And the ugliest tract homes you ever could imagine, spiralling through endless cul-de-sacs up to, and beyond, where the shepherd's home once stood.
All the trees were gone. This was the desert. Trees were scarce. But, hey, they planted palm trees along the once-country-road.
Talking to everyone they were so excited that we had a Robinson's May, a Best Buy, and a Sears. No one gave a care about the environment, or the legacy of our little valley between the mountains.
My little town of 3000, where children rode horses to school, now is a Southern California wine country enclave that gets lampooned on SNL. The orange groves are being cut down to make room for subdivisions. Golf courses and wineries now suck from the aquifers to which the small, family ranchos of their neighbors have the water rights.
To this day, I think often about the little meadow with its sheep grazing quietly on the hillside. It is my place of calm in stormy days.