Misery

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  Misery

• Mar 31, 2023

I dont suppose anyone currently here might have like a funny video or something to share... coming down off of a bad anxiety attack (storm season, astraphobia, not a fun combination), still really shaky, could use some humor or anything

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  Misery

• Mar 30, 2023

Look at this crazy thing. From the Dark Souls board game expansion I just got. I kinda want to try to learn to paint minis (which is what this type of figure is called)... the board gaming hobby has quite a few of them... but some of them just look so absurdly intimidating to paint. So many details.

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  Misery

• Mar 28, 2023

Today's special interest haul. It's been a long while since I went and got much of anything new. The really BIG haul has yet to come though.

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  Misery

• Mar 15, 2023

Thing that amused me today: I'm checking my email, right, and it occurred to me to have a look at the ol' spam folder. Every single thing in there is from the Microsoft Store. ALL of it. Like some sort of sad, obsessive stalker. But with ads. I should note that I bought one, and ONLY one thing from there in the past. Like, 2 years ago.

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  Misery

• Mar 14, 2023

Walk out into the garage to get a soda, just nice and calm, suddenly from the other side of the garage, a noise like pop-pop-pop-WHEEEEEEE!!! and, ya know what, I dont even wanna know. Back into the house, go get some Advil. Wont help with the demon clowns or whatever that was, but maybe my neck will hurt less.

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  Misery

• Mar 11, 2023

An "I should not have clicked that" moment: Was curious about how eye surgery worked, like the sort my father had. So I tried looking it up on Youtube. First of all, NOPE. Secondly, that wasnt the only thing that came up in the search results. With no self control, I clicked one of the OTHER ones. Aaaaaaaaaaaaagh I cant unsee any of that, why did I do that. Mistakes were made

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  Misery

• Mar 5, 2023

Finally updating my gaming emulator/rom stuff today. I hadnt done that in like 15 years, what an absolutely staggering difference it is. That previous setup was practically stone age stuff compared to this. I tend to be really, really bad about updating stuff, but still, shoulda done this much sooner.

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  Misery

• Mar 2, 2023

So, art thing I've realized: I can do really good at like, the initial line work of a given thing (albeit very slowly, more experienced artists can probably do it MUCH faster). But, when it comes to fill it full of color, that's when everything goes downhill. Things get splotchy. Hm. I'm not sure how to go about getting better at that part, but that's what I need to focus on.

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  Misery

• Feb 10, 2023

Okay, so, I've opened up to a few more people that I know online about being transgender (mostly over on Steam). And... every single one of them had already guessed that. In a couple of cases, they said they figured it out like, quite a long while ago. Was it seriously THAT obvious?

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  Misery

• Feb 4, 2023

Well I managed an hour long VR session today without feeling like I was gonna fall apart afterwards. A lot of my physical issues (chronic pain) has been way less lately and getting in the way of stuff less. More room to pursue my hobbies, finally. Still gotta be careful though, I should probably relax for a bit now.

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  Misery

• Jan 30, 2023

Well, today I finally sat down to start to learn Gamemaker Studio (one of the major game-dev engines). I'd been meaning to do this for AGES, but... yeah, lethargy. Today though, time to do it. So I went through the tutorial videos/guide/something, and have produced the worlds worst version of Asteroids, thus completing the first step. But I made the rocks spin, it didnt tell me to do that, hah!

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  Misery

• Jan 20, 2023

Currently feeling quite drained, after having gotten that blasted vaccine booster. It did this to me last time too, where I end up just feeling all "feh" and blankly staring into space for like a whole day. While at the same time my sensory issues trigger seemingly at random. No idea why. I should probably go and actually do something.

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  Misery

• Dec 28, 2022

This is the drawing I'm currently working on, toughest one yet. Her name is Amalga. Started as pencil on paper but I transferred it to the iPad after finishing her face. Tracing took awhile, adding everything else took awhile, drawing her freaking arms nearly drove me insane. There is still a LOT more to do yet. Gonna have a full background this time. ugh

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  Misery

• Dec 25, 2022

Ye gods, my arm hurts. Been playing Dead Cells a lot recently (think Dark Souls, but in 2D, more colorful, with roguelike elements, and much faster). A bit too much really. It's such a blast. Got all the expansions recently, and the next expansion is Castlevania (like, actual Castlevania, I've no idea how they got that license). Highly recommended to anyone looking for a great gaming challenge.

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  Misery

• Dec 19, 2022

Chronic pain kinda sucks, did I ever mention that? Bah. Tired of it interrupting things I'm doing. I can partly blame high school for this. Well, I can blame high school for a lot of things.

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  Misery

• Dec 15, 2022

GAH I'm not paying attention to the blasted clock again, here I am browsing the forum here and I should have had my meal 2 hours ago since I gotta get up at a specific time... uuuuuuugh. I'll be paying for that with missed sleep later. Bah. I always do this to myself.

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  Misery

• Dec 11, 2022

A drawing I'm working on. Her name is Amalga, I totally love her. There's waaaayyyyy more yet to this drawing to do, arms & hands will be hard. Also stitches, lots of those, she's kinda stitched together. The left side of her face is mostly rock, as are the things in her hair, so that's why that looks odd (needs details though to give texture). And no, I didnt design her.

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  Misery

• Dec 8, 2022

So, update: MORE INFECTIONS!!! My father's eye thing is still going (but slowly, slowly getting better). Dog #1, Cooper, has an ear infection for the millionth time. Dog #2, Dingle, has an eye infection, because of course. I dont even know how we're supposed to deal with her medication. Some sort of cream and the method of applying it sounds... not quite right. LOTSA FUN AROUND HERE.

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  Misery

• Dec 1, 2022

Gotta say, all this gender stuff is increasingly rough. Just a single "sir" thrown my way is enough to kill my mood at this point. I cant do anything about it yet. Cant go into "girl mode" before having told anyone, and it aint time yet. I'm close though. So close. Another week or two. Just gotta hold out a bit longer. How does anyone get through this without going insane first? Ugh.

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  Misery

• Nov 25, 2022

So, I lost 23 pounds, it seems. I've no idea where they went.