Reasons why I can’t let go of wanting a relationship

[Uri]

All you have to do is go outside and you can see regular couples who are not genetically perfect who are in relationships.

No matter how physically attractive a guy is, if he opens his mouth and a lot of garbage comes out, or if he's a shut-in, or if he's rude, etc., he's likely to not be very popular - unless he's wealthy or has some other tangible asset that he can offer. For regular guys, you have to learn to communicate, have good grooming, and get out of your own heads. Being a kind human being helps too.

In reality, I've seen otherwise.

You see when I was in high school there were many very pretty girls all around me but none of them played any attention to me at all despite how polite and nice I was to others according to my teachers and I think all that is because I was very ugly and also not as good-looking and dominant and aggressive as the other good-looking white kids.

Pretty girls in high school are truly evil in my opinion.

I believe you can be so ugly that no matter how nice you are to women or to others, women will want nothing to do with you because you're so ugly and especially if you're very ugly and also poor.

In my opinion the only way a very ugly-looking guy can gain social status and success with pretty women is if he becomes rich and successful in his career.

 

[Markness]

Sadly, working as a librarian has not translated to romance. I’ve seen co-workers get dates but it never happens for me.

 

[Markness]

I don’t understand why a certain number of people in the community don’t want me to get better.

 

[Markness]

I've watched some videos made by another person on the spectrum who is in a similar situation as I am but he's ten years older than me.