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KevinMao133

KevinMao133

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  • KevinMao133
    Apparently Seattle’s most expensive penthouse is up for sale right now, at a cool 12 million

    Not sure if I will move there though, or can afford buying the property
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    Misery
    Misery
    I mean, I know people get kinda weird about "views"... down on the island (Anna Maria) you'd have a house near the beach but not ON it, expensive enough, but take the same house and move it across the street and suddenly it's 7 million more, only difference, beach connects to house. Never made sense to me.
    KevinMao133
    KevinMao133
    it’s near space needle, heart of downtown

    The condo is also the premium condo in Seattle
    jsilver256
    jsilver256
    I'm living in a house that has a full view of a major city with easy access to that city, and has a lot more privacy and square feet. There are still condos in the city that are worth more than the house. All I can say is that people are silly.
    KevinMao133
    Just read an article somewhere that autistic people in general have a hard time dating

    So as it turns out, maybe it has nothing to do with race after all. I mean even white guys struggle sometimes, and I’m surprised
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    Masaniello
    Masaniello
    I struggled for a time, succeeded, then stopped caring.
    S
    Steelbookcollector217
    even long before i joined this site, over the years, i've noticed that it is sadly not unusual and not unheard of for lots of autistic men to become 30 and 40 year old virgins or older, yes its even not unheard of for lots of NT men like that as well, but for men with autism, i'm sure without question more common.
    KevinMao133
    Anybody feel disinterest in life?

    I have no interest in walking, too lazy to do so
    blitzkrieg
    blitzkrieg
    This sounds a lot like the symptoms of depression.
    KevinMao133
    As it turns out, the reason why I don’t understand relationships is because I have no idea what a successful relationship is. The only successful relationship I know is the one my parents is having

    Also I’m not super connected to my emotions. I mask 80% of the time, don’t speak much and never express my true thoughts

    I’m only me when I’m by myself. The works will never see it
    Kayla55
    Kayla55
    Was listening to lot of music today lullaby by the cure being one of them.
    Was thinking of the crow, watching my boy skating, thinking of my half with mom
    KevinMao133
    I was riding the streetcar today, wondering about something

    Why do people get into relationships? Why do toxic relationships exist?

    I mean I don’t know a thing so I can’t common but to me all of this seem weird, like none of it makes sense
    KevinMao133
    I had to cut off a lot of relationships today, toxic ones

    Did a major cleaning of my phone, including contacts

    I feel vulnerable but I trust my gut
    blitzkrieg
    blitzkrieg
    Sounds like you made a positive step forward, Kevin. :)
    Raggamuffin
    Raggamuffin
    Yes, you need to have people who make you feel safe and understood.
    Judge
    Judge
    A productive move, Kevin. "Look out for number one".
    KevinMao133
    I do not understand neurotypicals

    Don’t create false expectations if you can’t deliver

    I hate it when people say they will come at 4 but never show up. My time is valuable and I hate being coaxed. If there are no expectations, then I’d rather do my own stuff instead

    I hate socializing
    Masaniello
    Masaniello
    I'm with you there. A local dog groomer advertised a 9.00am start. I booked my dog in for that time (on various occasions - I didn't learn my lesson) and he was always late. I can cut some slack for occasional tardiness but being always late is so rude.
    KevinMao133
    KevinMao133
    @Masaniello me too. Plus it shows that person don’t care

    I had cut his contact from me, remove it. I kind of regret it but not really
    KevinMao133
    Subtle racism is real

    The way people see me, the expression is different. It’s almost like I’m a nuance just existing

    I also find people not wanting to interact with me. I give out creeper vibes even though I don’t intend to do so

    It’s like being an Asian man is a problem
    Levitat0r
    Levitat0r
    It can be hard to tell whether it's racism as such when there is such a wide variety of reasons for people to hate, and race is just one of them. But it's possible.
    Kayla55
    Kayla55
    Maybe just walked. People think I'm a blue eyed idiot,
    Remember as young women tying my boyfriend up, had done my eyes smokey and was on spidergirl tangent.....
    He was happy, I wasn't so I left him tied up. Got phone call later

    Maybe it's just like misunderstood, he thought x, and young impulsive expressive me was on y tangent.

    I think moral of story is don't pick up stray dogs
    KevinMao133
    Do you guys ever catch yourself overthinking things that do not matter?
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    Judge
    Judge
    All the time...because I give that a lot of thought as well.

    Seriously though, it's who and what we are to do so. Not really sure if there exists a surefire way to subdue it.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    I tell myself l am overthinking, then l distract myself to do something else.
    KevinMao133
    KevinMao133
    @Aspychata I’m the same. I don’t think about those things, I try to

    It doesn’t make it easier though but there’s less distractions
    KevinMao133
    Just know one thing: you don’t have to be open to everything

    You don’t have to accept everything the world offers. Doesn’t mean you are close minded though. It just means you have your own interests and specialities
    KevinMao133
    Sometimes knowing too much does more harm than good

    When you are in too ingrained in a culture, you see the good bad and flat out ugly. The way you see things will be different than those on the outside

    That being said, I’m learning to be more objective towards certain things. I’m quite judgemental, something I have learned over the last few years
    KevinMao133
    The more I think about it, the more I blame certain individuals for thinking a certain way

    I don’t believe non Asians for finding us unattractive. After all, as an Asian man, even I don’t find us attractive. Heck, even I don’t like Asian people

    I especially don’t like Chinese people, those from there. I find them to be too barberic, not good enough for me
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Let's not bad mouth others. My ex-husband's grandmother is from China, and my daughter is then part Chinese.
    KevinMao133
    KevinMao133
    Well I guess being ethnically Chinese has a lot to do with it. Their double standardness is what drives me nuts and the big reason why I want nothing to do with them
    KevinMao133
    People who play games in relationships, in my mind, are those who are shallow

    That is one thing I don’t understand about the world. I wish everything can be more transparent
    KevinMao133
    You know what bothers me? When people put labels on me and say we all act like that

    Pretend to be cool it’s not cool. Coolness is within, not something that is pretended
    KevinMao133
    For those who have embraced their autism diagnosis, how did you do it? How long did it take?

    I’m on my way
    jsilver256
    jsilver256
    I'm still in the process too. Probably not a popular answer, but faith continues to be by and far the most important factor for me. Believing there is a reason and a plan can be a self-fulfilling prophecy if nothing else.
    AuroraBorealis
    AuroraBorealis
    May sound weird, but I needed a few proper meltdowns until I started accepting it and feeling less like an imposter. How do you define "embracing"? I'm not sure which moment I'm supposed to think of.
    KevinMao133
    I just realized something: I am too combative and my attitude sucks

    That being said, I’m trying stay away from triggers and live like a stoner
    T
    thejuice
    Problem with drugs is its like a credit card. They offer short-term pleasure and long-term pain. It gives you the illusion of having more money than you have. Then you live with less because each month it takes away what you earn to pay past credit.

    Almost everyone I know who grew up as stoners left it behind them. The ones who still smoke are unhappy.
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